Things getting on top of me

TheGiantPanda · 11-08-2011, 03:18 PM

I can feel myself slipping down and i don't know what to do to stop it.

I'm cutting a lot more than normal and i'm getting suicide fantasises again and just feeling sad, worried about the future, money, job, just fed up with life.

I'm due to have CAT therapy at some point but i have to wait for a date, she said it will be towards the end of the year. Could really do with seeing her now tbh.

I'm doing the normal distraction things, works for a bit, it's just when i get on my own my mood plummets and i get really down.

I've got lots on i want to talk to a therapist about and it's all building up inside me, it's getting a bit much, i'm still holding on but feel i could crack any minute :(

Might go back to the doctor and ask if there is anybody i can talk to. I'm due to see my psychiatrist in May next year to review things, and when i do see him it's only for 20-30 mins as he's a busy man.

I like my psychologist , she's nice and i don't feel awkward with her, but again, i have to wait till the end of the year as she is the one doing CAT.

I'm not sure what to do, do ya think i would be allowed to see somebody from my local CMHT for a chat? I don't see anybody from their regularly atm, i have done in the past, been going there for about 7 years i think but i don't really have any professional support atm other than GP.

Thankyou

Once A Fallen Angel · 11-08-2011, 05:44 PM

Hi Cherry, I think it's definately worth going back to your GP and telling them exactly how much you are struggling, they may be able to put you in touch with a CPN/healthcare assistant in the meantime before your new therapy starts. You definantely deserve more help and support *hugs* x

TheGiantPanda · 12-08-2011, 02:29 PM

Thanks (((hugs)))

I still feel pretty crap atm, i'm gonna wait until my next day off on tuesday and if i still feel the same i'm gonna ring the doctors or go there.

Thankyou for replying

ferretmonster · 12-08-2011, 04:58 PM

definitely worth asking matey, they have a history of you so hopefully it would be easier, maybe they could get a cpn on for you from time to time or something?

good luck x

Chevonne · 14-08-2011, 06:36 PM

i felt like i was slipping a few years ago and almost went too far. I'd see someone asap. With everything getting on top of you, if its a case of work like school work or bills, write down what needs to be done in the order it needs to be completed, so the thing with the nearest deaadline completed first. Try these links they might help:
http://pirkeavot114.wordpress.com/20...e=bd68b52 186

http://pirkeavot114.wordpress.com/20...e=c1fc87f d7c

TheGiantPanda · 14-08-2011, 10:30 PM

Thankyou both (((hugs)))

Yeah i feel very fragile atm and worried about a lot of stuff and it's all building up, the self harms increasing and i just feel arghhh!!!

I really need to chat with somebody who won't worry like fiancee, family and friends. Gonna leave it till tuesday and speak with the doctor before it does get any worse.