I was talking to my brother and I told him a few things and he said it sounded as if I had paranoid schizophrenia but I honestly don't think I do, at all..
Anyway im really scared and I need some help, I know you cant diagnose but anyone who has been diagnosed in the past or knows any info at all, it would be so useful.
I never seem to follow anything through
I dont brush my teeth and I only shower when I really need too,
I have weird thoughts, like at one moment I'll be totally fine and the next i'll be worried that my stepdad's going to kill my mum and my pulse will raise and i'll be terrified, or for example, the other day I saw a knife on the side in the kitchen and the first thing that popped into my head was 'my brothers dead.' and i was convinced for about ten minutes that if i went into his room i'd see his dead body
when i was ten or maybe even eleven (im fourteen now) i was remembering my old imaginary friend and suddenly i couldnt 'stop imagining' her and 'she' started to chase me to try and strangle me and i couldnt stop it happening and i ran all the way home and went straight to my room.
I have periods of feeling really really really down and hopeless, and then just periods of apathy, and occasionally i feel sort of detached from everything like no-one will ever understand me
sometimes just before i fall asleep, someone whispers my name and i wake up with a start to find no-one there at all
it all sounds so stupid and to be honest, not at all like schizophrenia but please if anybody has any clue what else it could be let me know, as my mum said she was willing to get it checked out
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I am glad you have posted here, and to read that your Mum is willing to help you reach out for help through your Dr. To be honest, that is the best thing to do - especially as what you are describing sounds like it is very distressing for you.
What you are describing are known as symptoms of psychosis - Seeing, hearing or believing things that others do not see or believe. Psychosis can make up a part of schizophrenia, but it can also make up a part of other mental health illnesses, such as Bi-polar, depression and psychosis disorder. It can also on occasion be a reaction to certain medications, such as anti-biotics. Having these symptoms does not mean you immediatly have scizophrenia.
What is important here, is that it is distressing you and that you are reaching out for the help you need. The best thing you can do is describe how you are feeling and coping in day to day life to your Dr, who may then advise that you speak to a Psychiatrist. Only they can diagnose you, as diagnosis can be a slow process.
In the mean time, it may be that they can recommend some treatment, medicine or therapy which could help you to feel less distressed in your day to day life.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
Hey....it's worth getting it checked out and seeking treatment. If it's not addressed early, it can get worse and things will be overwhelming which may result in hospitalization. Even chatting with the closer of your parents may help? Im sure they care about you and wish the best health wise. Take care there...feel free to PM me anytime.
If it's not addressed early, it can get worse and things will be overwhelming which may result in hospitalization.
I agree, if things get so bad and you get sectioned, then you have no choice but to spend at least 28 days in hospital. Which is not fun, and scary if you have not been in one before.
If you are over 16, then the best bet is to go to your GP, and you need not tell your parents. Under 16 it is tricky. The chances are that you have to take medication, but honestly it is better to take meds, than it getting worse and worse, and you get sectioned. Then you have no choice but to take meds.
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Sorry if this comes across as rude or unhelpful, but don't most people with psychosis generally have the least insight into their behaviour? At least in the early / beginning stages, because to them their condition to them is completely normal. Sort of like a bipolar person going through a manic phase won't think that their grandiose delusions of becoming President of the United States (for example) are in anyways improbable, because to them it's real, if that makes sense.
From what you've written it sounds more like some form of extreme anxiety. I get that too, I've went through phases where I was scared of answering the phone or the door because there may be bad news, or it may be someone wanting to rob the house or perhaps the police there to arrest me or something. As for your hygeine, in all honesty, that could mean anything. When I'm depressed I frequently neglect myself too - I go to bed late, get up late, don't shower as often, don't brush my teeth as often, don't change my clothes, etc. unless I have to.
But I'm not a doctor, obviously as you know, so it would be best to see your GP, as s/he can get you assessed properly and professionally and of course they can actually physically see you too, which if I'm not wrong, is what forms 50% of a mental health assessment anyway. Good luck. x
If you are self aware enough, it is possible to understand psychosis for what it is when in more "lucid" states. This is probably more attributable to psychosis than to that which forms parts of schizophrenia. I say this - as I do have and experience psychosis and am aware of it to certain extents in my "calmer" states.
Granted, this requires moments of lucidity, but I find the idea that you can not have it without being aware fairly insulting.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
Granted, this requires moments of lucidity, but I find the idea that you can not have it without being aware fairly insulting.
Roiben x
If this is in response to what I said, I apologise if I came across as offensive. I'm only saying that on what I've researched and people I've spoken to who suffer from/have suffered from psychosis. I've never been psychotic (as far as I'm aware..) myself so that probably speaks volumes, but part of the definition of psychosis is to 'lose contact with reality' so it would seem strange for someone to be psychotic and be 100% able to think that their own behaviour and thoughts are unusual enough to logically quiz about it on a message board and enquire about going to a doctor. That is unless of course we're speaking retrospectively when the person is medicated or recovered.
I am aware some are self-aware enough to try and engage logically with their thoughts, though. Like I pointed out, the OP needs to see a GP anyways..
thankyou everyone for all the help!
threxy, i honestly thought/think my behaviors and thoughts were 'normal' but it was only when last week my brother pointed out that what i go through isnt normal that i started to question it, and it made me extremely anxious when he suggested i may have paranoid schizophrenia (something i dont think i suffer from personally) the only reason i posted here was because i dont think it's so much of an issue to go to the doctor about- i dont want to kick up a big fuss about nothing. you have a very very good point though.
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