Relaps just need resurence *trigger maby*

[ironholly]

I feel like i have lost the plot compleetly, My clients moved so no i have no work, i feel like ive lost my job, i havnt worked in two weeks. College has ended and now i dont heven have that to get me out bed in the mornings. I have a masive fall out with my best friend, hes removed me off facebook. I litrly feel like hes died and im morninig him. I got that drestressed of this i started thinking my bed was going to tern into a boat and i was scared to sleep as i get sea sick. I ened up having to go to the minor injurys unit to get patched up. Now everytime i look at the bandeges i want to rip them off and ruin what they had patched up. I saw my therpest today, she thinks its all linked to father isuses but wont go into it yet as im too unstable. I just feel so draind right now. I now i need to get out of this but i dont know how i dont want it to get worse. I just feel so hollow. I dont really know the point of righting this i just feel so messed up and need resurence. I hate having bpd and all the **** that comes with it. I feel like im having a brake down, the last 4 days have gone so slow

[OT_Lady]

Wow, it sounds like your having a hard time. Firstly, it may seem hard, but try not to be so tough on yourself. Ok, an argument with your best friend: 1) its natural to argue with the closest ppl in your life
2) you have a best friend - thats a positive
3) understandably i do not know the circumstances, but hopefully it blows over and things will be back to normal in no time.
Work, its a tough climate out there at the moment, try not to personalise it. There are hundreds that feel the same way as you do, your not alone missing work. Maybe its good ot have a rest.
You completed your college course, well done. Now take those skills and put them into practise, when and where possible.
There are positives in all of the negatives that are mentioned above.
You have not lose the plot, your just feeling low and everyone feels low every now and again. Try to pick yourself up and wake up in the mornings with a 'not gonna let this beat me' attitude. Things will get better soon, your a good person, keep reminding yourself of that.