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bad thoughts and voices
I have been having bad thoughts and voices telling me to hurt people for about 2 years now ,
I cant go on the bus without my husband being there with me and when am on the bus am so scared that some one is going to sit in front of me or behind me because i think am going to hit them .
I have to hold my husbands hand and be cuddled by him to be able to stay on the bus and for my thoughts and panic to ease a little.
If my husband leave me on my own outside shops or on the bus am a mess my thoughts get worse and i get more panicked.
My husband tells me that am safe and that am not going to hurt anyone and no one is a threat to me but am really scared i will do it.
I get even more panicky when its children and i think am going to hit them as well .
I did have a psych who gave me medication for the voices and i saw a CPN who told me to challenge the thoughts witch i have been doing but nothing helps.
it got to the point were id rather not go out at all , but my husband makes me go out because he dont want me to shut myself in all the time.
today i was really bad every time some one came near me id grab my husbands hand or try to move away from the people that were there
they must think am weird or something because of this
Am unsure what else to do about this but its really affecting me
Angel21
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