am not doing this anymore :(

Pollyanna · 05-07-2011, 06:40 PM

saw psychologist today, said can't help me...suggested different approach needed. i started to trust her as well, but she was just like the other one, didn't give a shit really just wanted me to be someone elses problem. asked how i felt. How did she think? rejected, tired, fed up, suicidal at times and wanting desperately to stop the pain shooting through me! am not doing this, not getting sent from pillar to post on their terms, i can't do it so hard to try and trust new person and then they say see ya! i don't deserve this help anyway. i want to stop this now. so scared of what i might do, so tired to care anyway.

aklx · 05-07-2011, 07:00 PM

I'm sure the psychologist didn't mean to make you feel rejected or anything like that, she just wants you to see the person who is able to help you the most. She wants you to get better.
It is hard to feel that way, I'm still waiting on psychologists myself but you have to remember it will be worth it when you find the person who is right for you.
You do deserve the help, you are not a problem, you just have some.

morningside stranger · 05-07-2011, 09:10 PM

Sweetie, it sounds like she DOES give a shit. The fact that she wants you to try a different approach shows that she cares and just wants you to get better. I know it can feel crappy though to be bounced about from one person to another. Trusting a total stranger is hard enough. It's natural to want them to stick around and help you through from beginning to end. Then again, psychologists aren't our friends. They just want what is medically best for us. It's still a difficult concept to get to grips with. I'm so guilty of weirdly expecting professionals to act like my friends. I guess it's because we're trusting them with such personal stuff. Don't give up hope though. The next person might be able to help you and think how wonderful it will be if you find the proper treatment. That's not being bounced about. That's moving FORWARD :) Do you know what this 'new approach' is? Did your psychologist explain how she thinks it may help you? Hang in there xx

Pollyanna · 09-07-2011, 08:47 PM

She hasn't said anything about what to do next. seeing doc this week and will ask some questions. it just hurts :(

talaiporia · 12-07-2011, 09:22 PM

How are you feeling now? When are you seeing the doctor?

Pollyanna · 16-07-2011, 11:32 AM

hi talaiporia, saw doc yesretday, not received letter from psychologist yet so need to make another appointment for 3 weeks time. tried to talk to doc but was rushed out of app as think she was behind. totally lost ability to speak :(

xjessx · 16-07-2011, 11:58 AM

I hate it how doctors do that, the last time i saw mine i wanted to tell her stuff but i was outa there in under 10mins! And she made me cry so much cuse she seemed so angry! But im sure your psychologist is just trying to do whatrs best, with the system they arnt able to chop and change patients on person al feelings, she would have really needed to believe you need a diff aproach =)