SO ****ING ANGRY!!!

pea soup · 28-06-2011, 10:54 PM

I came down with a migraine a few hours ago.

Kelly is puking and wont get out of bed....so I called her mom to ask if they would keep Kaleb tonight. She got all smart with me and I just said "ok, just send him home!"

so now...I will be watching Kaleb tonight and getting his bath..yada yada..

I srarted having migraines at 30 and they get worse as i get older. itgs genetic. my mom and grandma both had them really bad until they went through menopause. i dont look forward to menopause but i DO look forward to these migraines going away. my mom and grandma havent had one since their menopause.

but i am just soooo pissed off. i understand that kelly is really sick and i know she needs rest but so do i!! Ive done everything i can for the migraine but its too strong. i need to just sleep if i can.

and being angry isnt helping at all. i know i need to calm down and im trying to.

kelly's mom puts too much on me. if kelly is in bed..she'll say " well, can you not do it?" NOOOOOO...NOT TODAY!!!!

i leave to see Keith a week from tomorrow. this **** around here has to stop. i have to be in top shape for him. i could go on and on about how pissed off i am so i'll just shut up....

pea soup · 28-06-2011, 11:40 PM

and NOW i was picking out his clothes for tomorrow and realized he has no clean shorts to wear!!! his grandma has a habit of keeping most of his shorts over there!!

so NOW im doing laundry. and our dryer doesnt dry on the first run. we have to run it twice...grrr

i know this sounbds petty...but it isnt to me when it feels like my right eyeball may pop out at any second :(

Pomegranate · 29-06-2011, 12:41 AM

It is ok Rach. You will manage it and be ok.

That being said when things are a little calmer then I think you and Kelly need to sit down and have a chat together and also with her mum. You are a human being too. You raise Kaleb and you love him but you do not have to or deserve to be a martyr to everyone else's needs. I understand totally why you are upset and angry but for now (and I know this is hard)....could you try and put it to one side so you don't have to deal with those feelings on top of a migraine, the other feelings and the chores? Try and break it down a little. I know you know that but staying super angry and stressed will only make you feel more physically and mentally crappy.

Again, apologies cos I do know that you logically know that. *sends some magic pain relief and cuddles your way*

Pomegranate · 29-06-2011, 12:42 AM

I think we may have just cross posted/PM'd :p. Will try and reply later. Thank you though hun and again.....lots of love x

pea soup · 29-06-2011, 07:13 PM

thanks bunches Emma.
I have pm'd you.
Incant type very well right now so talk soon.
loves.
xxxxx

pea soup · 30-06-2011, 01:47 PM

Well....Kelly and I had a fight last night. I don't want to go into details. She was irritated that I depend on her for something. I thought this was crazy as she depends on me for many things, and I basically only depend on her for 2 things in our whole relationship.

I went to bed and she stayed up all night. I have a docs appt. this morning and I told her she doesn't have to go but she says she will.

This makes 3 days worth of migraine and I'm telling my doc today. He will probably give me a shot which sucks but they usually knock it out and I am sooo ready for it to go!!

Sleep sometimes will cure them but I continue to wake up with it still there.

I'm so anxious about seeing Keith and it's getting so close....gotta go now...about to leave.