Need some support, a recovered harmer who is struggling

[littleladylost]

Hi all,

I was a member of this community in 2003/2004, don't remember my old information though, maybe it didn't transfer when they switched from ruin to recover?

Anywho, I've struggled with SH on and off for more than half my life. However, I've been free since about 2004 (yay!!). Lately though I've been struggling.

Cutting isn't an option really, I'm married now and wouldn't be able to hide it from my husband (nor would I want to). He is a supportive man, but I know he cares too much about me to be okay with any form of SH.

I'm just frustrated that I keep thinking about it and how I feel (and it would help at first) it will help alleviate some of the stress I feel like I'm carrying.

I guess I just need to vent to a community who understands, and who also doesn't know me in real life.

[PoisonedApple]

*hugs* I have no advice but I do know what you're going through and I understand completely.
I'm just a PM away if you need :)

[Morgana]

Hi,

Are there things going on in your life right now that have potentially triggered your need to SH again? Or has the feeling seemed to arrive inexplicably?
Does your husband know that you used to SH? From what you've said he sounds like a good man, is there any chance you could sit down with him and discuss how you are feeling at the moment?
Are you on any meds or having any therapy at the moment? I am wondering if a trip to an understanding doctor to talk about how you're feeling and find out about any potential help available to you could be an option?
You have done so well to not SH for so long. I hope you can get through this too.
Hugs.

Morgana x