I have a reason to smile :)

ImJustMe27 · 12-06-2011, 03:30 AM

I smiled today, if only for a second. I wanted to post it here to see what others had to say, because I thought of no other place or category this would fit under. So comment if you will :)

I was on the way home from a party tonight, and I finally did it! I smiled, I will be repeating this a lot, maybe. So yes, I was on my way home from a party, and I was thinking about my family. My mom, uncles, aunts, cousins, and grandparents NEVER WENT TO COLLEGE or aren't planning to. I was on the trampoline with one of my cousins when he said, "I'm not going to college, I might not even finish high school, I'm going to be a music artist."

Now let me set this straight, the only people within my family on both sides that went to college were, my dad, and my two cousins on my mom's side who are scientists in Wisconsin. None of my other cousins who I talk to often EVER talk about college. Just dance and soccer.

The one OTHER thing I thought about was, my dad and cousins ARE ALL SUCCESSFUL. Like I said, my two cousins are scientists, and my dad is an IT director for M-F'IN MCDONALD'S.

One other thing I thought about, were the two cousins who I am related to by them being the sons of my mom's aunt. One of the cousins, has his own gaming server and gets a lot of money for doing so, and plans to maybe go to college after that fades away. The other cousin, plans on being in the marines, then going to college, THEN be a police officer or a higher rank of such.

I have never felt so close to one cousin in my whole life. He and I so far, are the one's who have mind-set goals, which we are planning on following through with. My goals are as followed:

Go to college
Major in chemistry

Graduate college

Get Bachelor’s degree
Get Master’s degree
Get a job dealing with Chemistry
Write a novel (or many)

I felt this twinge of joy for none but a second, but I have never felt so, what's the word, influenced to be better. Thanks for taking the time to read this, if you did :)

I soon felt worthless again, somebody in my family is going to go to college and I still probably won't. I'm not good enough.

Hlessirah · 12-06-2011, 05:59 AM

I'm glad to hear you smiled! I'm sure it was a lovely smile!
I know the future can be an uncertain and scary prospect (I'm in a similar situation), but try to hold on to that feeling that made you feel happy. From what I've read, you sound like a great, fascinating person who deserves to be happy.
Just out of curiousity, what's your novel going to be about?

ImJustMe27 · 12-06-2011, 01:49 PM

I don't know what the novel would generally be about, it's just like "oh, I'm doing so good doing this this and this, maybe I should write a novel!" you know? Maybe it'll bounce off whats happening in my life now? Who knows. Thanks a bunch :)