Contains Suicide - this isnt life

[minnie]

as the title says......i have been hearing voices since i was 15years old and am 38...39 next month....i am on medication for the voices and my mood
my mood goes up and and down everyday and i cant seem to control the voices...am just so down with everything now that i dont seem to think that this is what i want in life....i have tried od'ing in the past and other failed suicidal attempts .....i feel as though my life is over its just the same everyday

[quiet1]

i am sorry that you are feeling so low but sui isn't the solution. have you told your dr. that your mood and voices are not being controlled by the meds you are taking? maybe an appointment with your doctor would be a good step to take to let them know how you feel. you don't have to go through this alone either. post here. get your feelings out and maybe it will bring you some relief. i hope you can manage to stay safe tonight.

[tifflehan]

How are you today minnie?

[dollpart]

Is there any more support you can get?
How are you?
Sorry not to have advice, but thinking of you.

[minnie]

thanks for replying....i feel a little better today....still fed up though ....i cant ask for more support or ring anyone as i dont trust anyone...i have been diagnosed as schizoeffective...does anybody else suffer from this diagnosis?

any help would be appreciated xhugsx

[dollpart]

I don't have schizoaffective. I have a very small experience of paranoia (alcohol plus fluctuating mood) and know what it's like not to want to talk to people- obviously not to the same degree. But is there anyone at all you can trust? It sounds like you know this is part of the disorder, so maybe you could force yourself to get help? (Sorry if this is really unhelpful).

Glad you feel a little better, though.

[tifflehan]

I dont like asking for help either, but I'm here if ya wanna talk.

[minnie]

am really struggling....the voices are really loud and i cant seem to switch them off...am due my injection on wednesday but i cant wait that long to see my cpn....i think i will give her a call tomorrow if not my social worker