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Pretend it ain't happening, maybe its not :(
Seems long time since last posted. I tried to ignore everything - if I paint on a smile and carry on reminding myself to breathe in and out then that would be okay. But thats just stupid because nothing went away just because I wanted it to. Guess these feelings were bound to happen again, got first appointment with clinical psychologist next week and anxious about that as well. I had a counsellor - I grew to trust her and I wanted to stay with her but had to change and have next layer of support apparanetly. What if I don't have that bond with this one? I don't want to start it again, I don't want to talk about it all again - the fear, the self-harm, the ocd, being sick - none of it! but then sometimes i think that if you take all that stuff away, what the hell would be left...they are me. i want to run away and i'm going to be honest here but I am so scared. I hate this :(
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