is this wierd??? :S

perfect façade · 09-05-2011, 05:22 PM

I keep having thoughts and ideation about amputating the first half of my finger.......
Not saying that i am going to..... just the thought is there

musicmad123 · 10-05-2011, 12:14 AM

i like your pic :p
Um it's not really weird, I suppose it might be a bit worrying for you, why are you having this idea do you know?

Leo Pard · 10-05-2011, 12:26 AM

I'm just going to say that often I get visions of cutting off my fingers/hand/arm so you are not alone in this. Luckily I haven't done this so far...

Rubik'sCube · 10-05-2011, 01:05 AM

This happens to me. Often when I have managed to not self harm in a while, the intrusive thoughts get stronger, as if my brain is trying to 'up the anti' by presenting me with images of even more damage, presenting me with more of a challenge with regards to not giving in to SH. I think this is fairly common, I have seen similar posts. Do you have anyone to talk this through with?

Sorry for lack of any advice, may come back to this if I think of any. Just wanted to show I can relate

perfect façade · 10-05-2011, 09:18 AM

I don't really know why, or who to talk to.

surviver15 · 10-05-2011, 08:06 PM

Talk to your counselor about this! They might be able to help get the thoughts out of your brain. (:

makedamnsure · 11-05-2011, 12:36 PM

Yeah I do this kind of thing too, like Rubiks said, especially when I'm trying not to self harm.

I have graphic dreams about serious injuries and get urges to break bones and stuff. I don't act on them, but the thoughts are hard to deal with.

Lucy2you · 11-05-2011, 11:27 PM

It was when I started wanting to break my bones and amputate my toes that I scared myself enough to get help.

Merc · 13-05-2011, 08:28 AM

It certainly isn't weird (from a self harm perspective) but just wanted to say, it can end really, really badly (duh..obv.), but also in a way you didnt expect.
Pls try to use this to get help.

fragile as glass · 13-05-2011, 09:03 AM

I don't believe that any kind of 'fantasy'' around committing a more unusual self harm act can be called weird. Unique to you maybe but weird to me would suggest an act that didn't fit in to the self harm ''criteria bracket'', ie, cutting, burning, amputating, anything that damages your body in some (any) way.

I don't know you well but by the sounds of it you have a counsellor. Make the most of him/her and talk it over with him/her too. They may be able to reassure you in a more personal way seeing as they will know so much more about you. For instance, it may tie in to an event that happened in your life.