Hi this is a bit random,
ive had Me/cfs for 5 years and get bad anxiety/depression and go through phases of sleeping alot or not atall
, but i seem to i create things in my mind if that makes sence, ie. a couple of years ago i was worried my bf may have been cheating on me, although there was no reason to think it, but i made it into something really big in my mind, wanted to phone him like every hour and check up, started having panic attacks, self harm, nightmares about it and then got so i was affraid to sleep because of dreams, couldnt get my mind off it to go to sleep and then hardly slept for 2 months and ended up on tamazipam (however u spell it).
i got over that because we broke up lol
but
about 6 months ago i saw that stupid 2012 the 'world is ending thing' and i started to go through 'phases' where i think it will happen and get really obsessed and scared with it, and the rest of the time its always there on my mind.
and ive started to dream about it alot
any film or somthing written about either the end of the world, natural disasters, or man made things make me panic, like when there was the japan tsnami, for nearly a week i was having panic attacks about it.
im doing the same kinda thing with alot of other things
i feel like im only half here, i cant focus and i dont dare take anymore driving lessons, i kinda feel like im half in a dream all the time and find myselff staring blankley alot,
and one min im super happy and the next im like that or frustrated and right now im skakey n cant keep still or think slowly
idk what to do or whats going on with me and i cant explain it properly, like i can map it out in my mind whats wrong, but when someone actually asks whats wrong i dont know what to say
aha i prolly sound like a compleate loon
thankyouu, jess x
