Discrepancy in crisis team to different people?

[earthbound_misfit]

Ok, I am fuming here but really that is becuase I am so frightened, but the anger is better than feeling the pain because then I will just have to die and it's really scary.
Right so I have been getting increasingly desperate and don't want to call the crisis team because I have been taken to A&E four times recently (3 in one week) including being under a section 136 one time. Each time has involved waits of up to ten hours before being 'assessed' which means they say what they want and send me away. So there is no point. The first time I was actually trying to kill myself and my friend knew what I was up to and hung around in the place I'd got ready so I couldn't, and rang for help instead. After all, I would really rather get better. But I feel that there is no hope I have been fighting for years. Anyway despite this and despite actually SHing in front of the police because I couldn't deal with being forced to stay in A&E, they put 'no thoughts of self harm' in the assessment!!

Anyway in desperation after writing goodbye notes and then realising I didn't have enough pills to die, and the following shock feelings when the time you can kill yourself has passed, I texted a friend, I haven't known him for long but I know he has been in hospital for depression (which I didn't think was possible) and asked what the best way to get help would be - ie. how to get into hospital when you're not safe. He said:

"best thing to do is ring ambulance and explain. They will get in touch with crisis team who are really good and really care"

what???????????? then why do they hate me?

[PinQ]

I was released from an accute ward, after taking an OD and going through a psychotic period, being told that I would have the help of the crisis team who would come and see me in my own home once a day. The crisis team finally got in touch a week after my release and asked me to come to their base to be assessed. They decided I was not suitable for their service and offered me no help at all! I can understand your lack of confidence in the crisis team, if you can trust your GP they are a good person to goto I have found. Be strong

[getting_by]

Hugs- I have also had a pretty rubbish experience with crisis. The woman made me feel like a failure because I hadn't managed to kill myself yet- just what I needed. They decided I wasn't suitable too and that was that- I then waited ages with no one. But my GP is great- I would try to find someone you trust like that. Someone you can talk too. Its just a shame their appointments are so short.

Take care and please, if you need to, just ring for an ambulance- just try to keep yourself safe. x

[Gone.]

Without going into why I dislike crisis team, I've found their support varies. When I was under their care around Christmas time, this involved me going to see them everyday on campus and didn't work for me. They said things that were not what I wanted to hear - not just because they challenged me, they actually insulted people I cared about without knowing the situation and that was out of order in my opinion. Therefore, I stopped seeing them. However, I went to A&E in January and the on-call psych there was lovely. I saw him in March too and some of the things he said there were really nice and did sink in, especially as I mentioned a music video had upset me (not just that... but yeah) in the first one and in the second one, he told me he'd gone away and watched the video which was a nice touch.

Basically, after my looooong ramblings, crisis team varies. I've not tried it over the phone even though I have the number and that's slightly because this sight doesn't often show me positive reviews. However, I've found that crisis team is only useful if you get someone good. It's nothing to do with you, as a person, it's due to their differing abilities to do the job properly.

Take care.

[PinQ]

I think a big part of it is that they simply don't receive the funding necessary, thats what makes me so angry!