I know I had a thread in this forum, but it was sort of getting lost. I really need support right now. I'm not coping.
Home and work are both in flux.
Next door's children's noise is pushing me closer to breakdown. Their TV on until midnight last night and so I couldn't sleep until then. This morning their noise is too much.
Relaxation CD and Rescue Remedy helping some.
When I went to bed last night I felt my body like split in two halves, but each someone else, me and not me.
I'm dissociating/splitting myself off so much.
I'm so strung out and fraught and distressed. I'm so tired.
I need quiet so much it hurts.
No where is quiet. And then when it's quiet noise always comes back and hurts all the more.
Unfortunately not - parks around here get really busy at weekends.
And I am too fragile and volatile emotionally to go out. I feel so trapped. It's a bit quieter next door now. For now.
Nowhere feels safe.
I can't relax.
As someone who had noisy neighbours and used the council to deal with them, I personally found I got more stressed listening to their noise then the sort of noise that I would find elsewhere e.g. a park or a museum.
Is there someone who could go with you? If not then maybe a befriender service could be useful.
If the noise is constant I'd contact the council and start logging it. If you are renting the other option is to look elsewhere. You could also put your own music on to drown out theirs.
I must say that I couldn't live in a city and with your job situation have you thought about moving to the countryside? It probably isn't practical, but being able to walk for miles alone is worth it.
Unfortunately everyone is out. I'm not usually 'this bad', but at the moment.. I am.
I've pushed my ear plugs in as close as they go. It's quite a bit better. I am looking into ear defenders at Homebase.
It's not normally this noisy, thankfully. Plus I'm more sensitive right now.
Moving - I would, except with my flatmate hard pushed financially because of the separation, my moving out too wouldn't be considerate.
So, it's earplugs for as long as they're in, and zopiclone tonight, I guess.
Countryside would be nice, but also all my support is here.
Your flatmate can always advertise for someone else or perhaps move with you? You shouldn't need sleeping tablets to sleep in your own home. When I moved I actually ended up with a better support network.
I'll bear it in mind, at least. I must admit that I'd thought of moving back to Kent at some point.
However, London is where more jobs are...
I'll see.
They've turned the music off, for now. Thankfully. So I can take the ear plugs out for a bit. I'll go buy some better ones tomorrow.
If my GP gave me something to take in such 'emergencies' during the day. But only sleeping tablets in case of dire need. Even then that was reluctantly, she'd rather increase the mirtazapine dose. I think if I'm using the zopiclone more frequently, she would.
I understand the feeling of fragility, and how much harder noise is to handle at those times.
Have you tried noise cancelling headphones - less bulky than industrial ear-defenders, so perhaps more comfortable for those times when you just want to curl up somewhere?
I wish I had more advice right now.
Roiben x
If the Human brain were so simple that we could understand it, we would be so simple that we wouldn't.
I'm going to investigate. Homebase do sell regular ear plugs, extra heavy duty, so I might try them first.
Next door are still out. I hope they stay out... I know that's selfish, but.
But at least some of my flatmates are in, and that always helps me feel safer, protected.
