Should I feel rushed? Am I running out of time? *Triggering SI/Suicide*

[Just A Dream]

Hey,

I haven't been in school for a while. Not working at the moment, either, and can't until I get my full driver's license, although I don't have plans on working. My benefits are supporting my needs well enough right now.

I tried school in 2010, and that went terribly wrong.

I haven't been enrolled in any courses in school since 2010, although I am enrolled in a school right now, just not taking courses.

A counselor at my current school sent me the link to a mental health clinic in the city, and I started counseling there, for the first time since 2010, in March of 2011, I think.

My goal is to work through some of this depression, anxiety, and anger with my counselor about things like school - albeit not strictly school - before starting anything.

I feel that if I register for courses the way I am right now, I am guaranteeing disaster. I don't feel I am mentally fit to attend school at the moment.

Hardly anyone agrees with my decision. Not really sure if my decision is the right one, or if counseling will even help me

My concern is starting school: Should I start it as soon as possible or when I feel ready? Everyone else my age is flying through school. I sometimes feel like I am falling behind in life; that's what they're doing, therefore I should be too.
I also feel like time is running out for me to attend school. Yes, I am only 20 years old, but time is still running out, is it not?

If I delay school, is that okay? What if it takes a while to work on these problems of mine?

I can't think about school at the moment and not think suicidal thoughts.

[riotgrrrlcori]

Start school when you are ready. You will do the best and be able to function in the school setting better when you feel ready. It may be harder to do financially when your parents are helping, if they are currently, but it may not be. You could also talk to your counselor about getting a letter for the disability office at your school. They can do lots of things to help, like help you communicate with your professors and find ways to help where you have trouble.

[Snow White.]

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If I delay school, is that okay? What if it takes a while to work on these problems of mine?

I can't think about school at the moment and not think suicidal thoughts.

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Originally Posted by You

I feel that if I register for courses the way I am right now, I am guaranteeing disaster. I don't feel I am mentally fit to attend school at the moment.

I think you answered your own question there; if school is going to be too difficult for you now, it is okay for you to delay. It is actually incredibly wise of you. I delayed my schooling and it has been tough for a while but ultimately, amazing. Much, much better off. No point rushing back into school if your health is only going to suffer, is it?

You come first, you have to be well enough to study and you simply can't force it, please take the time to look after yourself and then consider going back to school. There's no point risking your health, and life, because you want to rush it. Other people may not understand but if going back to school is "guaranteeing disaster", please please don't risk it.

Just focus on you at the moment, maybe the break will help you find out what you need to work through this and get back on track with your life.

xx

[xMandarrx]

If you're not ready, you're not ready. I think it's totally okay for you to delay school, especially if you don't feel well enough to go. Your health should for sure come first.
I think it's really smart for you to know what's best for yourself like this.
Just go back to school when you're ready.