SICK OF IT

[wordwarrior]

I actually resorted to signing up for two forums to find artificial friends today --- and no replys! Even to artificial friends. So, how do ya heal that hurt?

Since 1/28 no shoulder to cry on and I had to hoove it back to my regular life and responsibilities. Everyone else taken care of -- no one even cares enough to call, email or send a blasted post card.

If I did not have my family I'd run to the other end of the earth. I'm doing everything the doctors and therapists say -- there is no cure for this mental agony or physical pain I deal with 24/7.

If you have a cure for this curse I'd love to hear it.

[Pomegranate]

I am not really sure what to say to your post that is not going to sound like a generic cliche, not because there is nothing anyone can say to help you but because I don't know you and don't know that much about the specifics of your situation.

You said nobody cares and then you mentioned your family. You obviously care about them. What makes you think they do not care about you?

What help are you having at the moment or have you had and what is it that you struggle with if you don't mind me asking? How would you describe your 'curse'?

[wordwarrior]

Too dark to totally dive into tonight. I will try more tomorrow.

Abuse of every sort. Physical disorders that will land me in a wheel chair probably in the next 10 years -- discovered in 2008. Lost a job I worked my butt off for in 2009 by a nightmare of a boss -- in court over it for past two years. Etc etc. My best friend dumped me after 30 of years of friendship after I remarried -- I hear I was dumb as a brick and she was in love with me. She was the only friend I had. So endured that "death" right after the happiest day of my life. The list goes on -- one disaster after another. Each thing hurting those I love more and more.

Decided to end it all 1/28 -- and botched that too -- laughable.

M