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Graphic - It's too late
Perhaps not that graphic, because I couldn't get hold of anything sharp enough.
I've had another incident at work, where I was joining in a bit of banter (so I thought). Just having a laugh and a joke, as you do, because you're part of the group, right? One of my colleagues then makes the comment, "Maybe you shouldn't have been listening". Oh right then. I'll just use ear plugs then, shall I? I'll just shut off from everyone else here, and become completely deaf. This bloke is even now shouting out his conversation acorss the office, so it's like if I'd been playing a trumpet of something, maybe I wouldn't hear him. But of course, I'm just completely aware of every conversation he's having right now. I can't stop listening now.
When do I listen then? He makes complaints when I'm quiet. Oh, so when it's OK, I guess I'll be allowed to join in then, will I?
So I've had a go at my arm again, I've managed to scratch off the top of one of my scars, and the whole site is enflamed and red raw. So I'm going to have spend two or three days covering that up. I can't go to lunch with anyone, because someone''s going to notice. My boyfriend is going to notice. But I don't think of things like that when I'm so angry I'd have used a frigging carving knife and done the job properly.
All I can think right now is be shotuing "SHUT UP! Just shut the hell up! If you want me to be quiet and not hear what you're saying, why don't you shove off and go and talk smoewhere else?" Maybe I should bring in some music, and then wouldn;t have to hear you banging on."
And he's having a laugh and a joke with other people because he couldn't give a stuff about how bad he makes other people feel, just so long as things are that perfect for him.
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