we need help (tw..s/i)

[hidingme]

we never post here..mostly in d.d. thread.

sadie hurt us again. not bad.. but did not help us feel any better like it usually does for a little while. if anything it made us feel worse.

we have no psych dr..only pcp and we dont have $ to see her but need to esp. since mom found out she has cancer. it makes it harder esp. cause we have to be strong and brave around her. we have to visit her tomorrow ..we dread it..it scares us.
but we do love mommy just cant face the truth that she is sick with cancer. waay too many family have or had it before now our mom.. no nonono..

so gotta wear jacket tomorrow so she dont ask about bandaids and cuts..
last time she sae cuts that almost were healed and we panicked and totally said "idont know..its nothing" afraid she thinks husband hurt us but dont know. we shoulda said a cat did it cause it looked like it but we panicked and forgot.

anhow sorry hope we arent breaking rules with this post. we arent trying to just in very bad place right now.. wish we had help but there is none..
sorry
please dont ban us..for this post we try to explain without breaking rules.. just sad, depressed, scared, wanting to disappear and sleep forever.. wish we could. but cant.

sorry
please?

[effervescence]

Sounds like you need to try and make an appointment to see someone and talk about what has happened.

I'm sorry to hear about your mother but she will need your support now as well so you need to be able to look after yourself so that you can be in a place to help her.

Hope you can get someone to talk to. Have you dressed your cuts and kept them clean?

[CaiteeBug]

Hey hun, you are not breaking any rules or get banned for posting in here. This is the right place. You've got alot on your plate right now and I hope you'll be alright.

[hidingme]

yes we put peroxide on it but because of where theyre at we cant bandage it .. bandaids wont stay on.. =/

we have no insurance and not enough $ to get therapist like we need/want but we keep looking.

dont want mom to be sick. want it to go away. not fair.. why our mommy?
cancer already got both granmas both grandpas 2 aunts a uncle and now our mommy.
not fair.
not all died from it..some did but we dont want mom to have it..want it to go away.
why cant we keep it from her?

[effervescence]

Nobody can stop someone getting cancer. It's just the way it is unfortunately. The best thing you can do is support her.

Is there a way to qualify for free counselling?

[roiben]

Can you apply for Medicaid for the therapy appointments? That, or speak to the Therapist, as they will often run a free session or at a reduced rate if the client does not have the financial security and needs the help. It is worth asking.

It does sound like you all need support right now. Do keep posting here, as I think it will help you to process what is happening for you right now.

Be gentle with yourself, and do be sure to take care of any cuts.

Roiben x