worthless

Emo · 09-04-2011, 11:20 AM

I feel am worthless all the time ... not one makes me feel this way.
My husband is loving and kind and treats me right.
But i still feel like am worthless
In school i was bullied a lot i had no friends and was treated like dirt.
Also i was abused.

Am so worthless that i think shouldn't live , right now i have voices telling me how worthless i am.
They say i should die ... i think i should
Sorry for taking up peoples time

Pi.R^2 · 09-04-2011, 12:07 PM

School was in the past- people bullied you because they were losers and probably insecure or whatever. It wasn't your fault. Can you try to be angry at the people who bullied and abused you, instead of letting what they did make you feel worthless?

What sort of support do you get for your mental health stuff?
You shouldn't die- the voices are wrong. You are a valuable person, and with the right help you can get through this, and enjoy a happier future :)

Emo · 09-04-2011, 12:22 PM

I was seeing a cpn and my psych but i have been discharge from them because they said i was stable ( i dont feel stable at all )
I just see my dr now for my mental health stuff.

I have tried to be angry about it then i feel bad for thinking that way about people ..i know its there fault ...its just accepting that it wasn't my fault that am finding hard to do

Yes my husband is supportive but of late he has stepped back a little and let me deal with stuff myself

Emo · 09-04-2011, 01:09 PM

yes i think i will tell her... finally got some medication ( my husband went to the pharmacy too late yesterday and it was closed ) today and i took them.
Hopefully the voices quieten down now.
They keep telling me ways to kill myself ...some of it is really graphic.
I want to start making plans as well ... but there isnt anything i can do because my husband will find out

Pi.R^2 · 09-04-2011, 03:44 PM

I'm glad you got some medication, and I hope it helps.
And sounds like a good idea to talk about this to your GP- they can't help you unless they know what's going on for you!

It's good that you have a solid reason to not try to make plans, and it will be a success if you ignore the voices and do the right thing :)

Emo · 09-04-2011, 08:05 PM

I want pills ... want to save them up and take them all
wish someone would understand
My husband says i dont need to take all the pills but i do

Pi.R^2 · 10-04-2011, 08:49 AM

you don't need to take too many pills, but I do understand the urge to. It feels like it's the only option, but just think about after- depending on what you take, you could end up in a hell of a lot of pain, and maybe even in hospital. Is that what you want?
How are you this morning?

Emo · 10-04-2011, 08:58 AM

Still dont feel good ... my husband has hidden the pills i told him i was feeling like this ...
He said he dont understand why am feeling like this ...i guess am in panic mode at the moment.
Thinking that been abandoned by my psych ...i have abandonment issues

Pi.R^2 · 10-04-2011, 09:39 PM

I'm glad your husband hid the pills.
Maybe a good way to think about the psych discharge is that even though you don't feel it, she could see that you were stronger? You can cope with this, and you can get better :)