I Dont know how to talk about whats going on in my head without seeming pathetic, thats what everyone else says I am, but they Dont know how upset I feel, cause the urge to hurt is so great I find it harder and harder to resist
My boyfriend left me a month ago and my best friend told me she didnt want to be friends two days later. I became victimized in my own friendship group and every new guy I meet or friend I make quickly decides they Dont want to know me....
I scratch, I pinch I even pierced my own ear to look for a pain I could achieve that would put me in control and still.stop me from cutting..... But I have no control, no one who even cares. I mean why should they? Who cares if I hurt myself.... I Dont know, Dont think anyone would be bothered tbh. Thats why I think ill do, but I think I just need to know how to not do it? When I feel I need it so much.... Im sorry to ask but Im at an end unsure who to ask or how to continue.... Dont even know what I need, just some help..please....
can you talk to a councelor at school about how to handle the treatment you're getting right now? that doesn't mean that they'll intervene for you, but they've probably dealt with similar things before and will have more experience about how to handle it. and you could consider seeking help for harming yourself as well.
you definately aren't pathetic...... i'm thinking that that term better fits the people saying that to you and treating you badly...... though, that said, they've probably got their own issues to deal with. which doesn't excuse the behavior, but might explain it (and there is a HUGE difference between the two!)
what sort of things to do you enjoy (or used to enjoy, if nothing immediate pops to your head)? what things help you feel good about yourself? those can be places to start looking when it comes to coping better and distracting yourself. and you could take a look at this thread http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 which has a whole list of ideas to peruse.
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
Im diagnosed and I can go see a counselor at the mental health unit, its just difficult cause I have to ask my parents to take me there and they always ask questions....
I Dont know whst I like anymore but ill look at tge link, thankyou x
People do care about you. I do. Others do. And I hope you won't turn to cutting. I wonder of you have anyone trusted like a counsellor or a doctor to talk to? This is really important, and sometimes if they aren't listening you have to shout at them a little but really that is where you need to get some help from sweetie. If it's scary, can a friend go with you at first?
I'm sorry you've had such a hard time with friends. I had a horrid time with friends in high school when I went through this. When I got help things were better. There is no excuse for them. Hugs
sometimes i've found it easier to tell my parents that i'm starting to feel bad again, and don't want to let it get any worse (and therefore need to speak to someone), than tell them that i really feel terrible and unsafe.....
this is my magical medicine cabinet. Left to right they contain: courage, hope, calmness, and strength.
The magical part: They NEVER run out, so borrow some any time you want.
Thankyou for all your advice :)
I try to talk to my parents but I'm a very closed person, I mean it's easy on here as no one is directly asking me questions... But I did some bad things to myself a year ago (roughly) and they go into overdrive and think it'll happen again...
In all honesty I feel void of a friend I could trust... Someone who would really care. I know if I tell anyone anything the whole year will know in a week... I go to an all girls school and relate better with guys which can also make it difficult aswell....
X
You won't disappoint them. Believe me, I know all about diasappointing parents, but my father has stood by me. Perhaps it might be a good idea to write them a letter?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
