Graphic - 2nd Mothers day alone :( May trigger!

[moon]

Ok so i've posted this in 2 seperate forums, because I don't know which it should go in :(

Ok so your probably wondering what its about.

Well as you all know, yesterday was mother's day.! And for those who don't know me i'm only 19 yes 19..!

I know that is very young to be a mother, but i was a mother to be at the age of 16.

In April 2008, I was attacked by a gang of 3 lads. They came up behind me, grabbed me and pulled me behind the trees and brutally r*ped me.! Each of them r*ped me 3 or 4 times.! They made me give oral s*x and other stuff. :( :( :(

None of them used a condom, and so I fell pregnant, I was petrified, i never told anyone in my family about the attack and to this day, i still havent.!

In August 2008, when i was 4 months pregnant, I had a miscarriage in my then boyfriend's house.

So it is 3 years since my attack and it is two years since i lost my child...

And yesterday was my 2nd mothers day alone :(

I would just like to say that even tho i dont have my little one, i still love him/her to bits.

rip angel
x

[tamobhuuta]

you've been though so much, i'm sorry you lost your baby and i understand that now must be a very difficult time of year. do you have anyone who can be with you, even without knowing the full story?

[moon]

im going to my fellas friday

[moon]

This is the week we remember all babies born sleepin or whom we have carried bt never met, or those we have held bt could not take home, or the 1s that came home bt couldnt stay. make this ur status if u or some1 u no has suffered the loss of a baby. majority wont cos unlike cancer, baby loss...is still a taboo subject X in memory of all the little stars X ♥ ♥

[talaiporia]

*huggles* I'm sorry, this must be a really difficult time for you, bringing up a lot of very painful memories.

How are you doing today?