It's awful to feel like that, sadly I'm sure a lot of people here could relate to that feeling. But you're not alone in this, I'll just echo Kismet, has anything in particular sparked this feeling?
That's how i feel at the moment too :( Sorry you feel like this, wish i could give you some advice on how to cope but im still trying to find a way myself :( xx
You know there are just some days where you just feel defeated. Right now there are so many things out of my control and I just feel overwhelmed. I know it won't last forever but it's hard to get through each day.
She finally gave up. She wiped the fake smile off her face. A tear rolled down her cheek, she whispered to herself, "I can't do this anymore."
Like you said, this won't last forever. It is going to get better. It's hard when you're stuck in the middle, just waiting for it to pass, but it will. Things always get better. Have you spoken to anyone about it
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Sometimes it feels like it's permanent even though you know it's not it still feels like it is. Do you think talking to someone would help? It might not make you feel as alone in all this.
I just gave my husband my journal and my medical records from my old therapist that I'm supposed to give to my Dr. I didn't want to but he kept saying I'm keeping stuff from him and I tried to tell him I'm really not but he doesn't beleive me. Of coarse there are things in my journal I don't want him seeing but now I don't really have much of a choice! I'm totally freaking out!! If I ask for them back then it's going to look like I'm hiding something.... Please give me some feedback..
She finally gave up. She wiped the fake smile off her face. A tear rolled down her cheek, she whispered to herself, "I can't do this anymore."
Hmm. Why don't you want him to see it? It might be a good thing if he can understand more what you're going through. Try not to worry; he's your husband. He loves you and he wants to help.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
I know it's scary to let someone in on things that seem so private but it sounds like he just wants to help support you and he can support you better if he knows what's really going on.
Sometimes I show my partner my journal entries because it's easier than actually speaking the words to him. That was he knows what's going on and it's an easier way for me to tell him. Has he talked about your journal at all?
Well I totally freaked out and took it it back before he could read it. And actually he has read some of it before but he is curious about a specific entry that I have covered with paper so it's totally hidden. It's pretty bad and I don't know if I can share it. I'm thinking of burning my journal since it's an older one. I've already taken out my poems and put them in another place. I kinda feel ok about burning it, I feel like it would be like getting rid of the past 4 years that were really bad because of 4 suicide attempts, 5 hospital stays and all the grief I put on my kids, so that's why I think I can do it. Do you think it's a good idea?
She finally gave up. She wiped the fake smile off her face. A tear rolled down her cheek, she whispered to herself, "I can't do this anymore."
I know everybody wants me to show my husband so he can understand me more and support me but that's not going to happen. He does not support me at all, he hates that I'm bipolar and he's made it clear he doesn't want to discuss my illness or meds or my therapy appts. but he always calls me crazy. The only reason he wants to read my journal is he thinks it's all about him. And yes, it's partly moving on and mostly to hide my thoughts and past.
She finally gave up. She wiped the fake smile off her face. A tear rolled down her cheek, she whispered to herself, "I can't do this anymore."
That quote completely resonates with me. I am too proud and worried about what other people might think to end my life... so I am simply stuck here, simply trying to get through each day.
I'm sorry he's not more supportive of you. Personally, if it were me, I'd not want to show him and have him not really understand. Do you think if it were more controlled he'd react better, for example if you give him something slightly less heavy to read, and sort of ease him into it. Could that be an option?
I guess if he really does only want to read it to see if it's all about him you could always try to assure him that it isn't. Or would he want to see it to make sure?
Please give me some feedback..
