Everything is really hard at the moment, and I feel really, really lost, and really not very well.
Please, I'd really appreciate it.
Thanks
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Claire sweetie, I'm so so sorry you are feeling so bad. Have you had the phone call about IP? Do you think you should ask them to speed it up? I really want you to be safe. Please call the crisis team or someone. I am here if you want to chat, seriously just PM me or something and we can skype/text/whatever you want!
Massive hugs.
You have become so important to me, please please take care. I know you can't see it right now but you are very special and you deserve to feel better.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Always seem to get things just that little bit wrong.
"don't wish, don't start, wishing only wounds the heart"
Claire, I really appreciate you being so lovely. I know you're having a rough time too, and I know I don't show it, but I do take on board all of your advice and I am seriously grateful.
I haven't heard today, but that's not surprising, there's a lot going on, and in fairness, I am okay. I've just had a pretty shitty day, and found out some not amazing stuff about my exams. Not results or anything, I just think maybe I've let stuff get on top of me.
I will call crisis. I will, but I don't think they'll be able to do anything. I'm sorry, I know we're just going round in circles, but it does help.
Thank you
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Yes, I did. They told me to "relax and take my meds". I have, but I'm still wide awake, and I feel terrible.
Sorry, I know it's not really productive, and I'm just whinging, but today has been horrible, I've been off kilter for a while and I'm really scared about what they will say tomorrow.
Thanks for all your replies, though.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
I was just worried about crisis. But it's okay because I never have lectures again and I've been in the pub since midday. Made of win.
I'm fine. It's all fine. Everything will be fine. Sorry.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
I don't really. I'm seeing the psych on Monday and then again on Tuesday. I just have to be safe and sensible until then, but I don't know if that's possible.
Nevermind.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
I just wanted to say thank you to you all for being so lovely.
Things are a bit weird, I don't really cope well with change, and I think in part that's why I'm struggling at the moment. With finishing lectures and things. I'm pleased, but also terrified.
I'm seriously trying to stay as safe as possible. Crisis aren't that bad. They're pleasant, just overstretched.
Because of the Easter holidays most people are heading home, that's really what I'm worried about this weekend. I also am in that stupid stage where I need to sleep, yet I'm wide awake and nothing is helping.
Sorry, I just don't really know what I'm doing with myself. Thanks for letting me just ramble.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
Thanks. I managed to get a few hours sleep last night, which was nice. I'm just trying to keep on top of it today. I'm on my own in the house at the moment, so it's tough. I've been to the gym and I'm going to head into uni when I've made myself presentable. I really am trying, I just know that this evening will be hard. I'm seeing my psych tomorrow, though. So It's less that 24hours I have to get through. I really am trying. Honestly. I just can't shake the negative thoughts, and I know that I could be doing a lot better with my SI. I really appreciate all of your support. Thank you.
Thanks.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
At least you got some sleep. Try and getting a little more tonight; the more sleep you get the better your mood tends to be. Good luck with your psych tomorrow.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
*Cuddles tight* How did it go today with your psych? I really hope you're alright, I'm sorry I don't have anything very useful to say but I am here, always, because you're amazing and I totally believe you can get through this. Be safe xxxx
"I know you're sad, so I won't tell you to have a good day. Instead, I advise you to simply have a day.
Stay alive, feed yourself well, wear comfortable clothes, and don't give up on yourself just yet.
It'll get better. Until then, have a day."
Appointment was fine, thank you. I'm going again tomorrow to figure out what is actually happening with my life at the moment, it's one of those extended ones, rather than just 10minutes to check that I'm still alive.
Sorry, I've had some really horrible, abusive emails from my stalker guy today, after I asked him to leave me alone yesterday, he called me a fountain of hate. They've been really, really nasty, and I don't know what to do about them.
I know I'm a big girl and I should be able to deal with it, but I really can't. It just feels so horrible to be told such things about myself. I know they're true, but I'd been trying to hide my horrible, malignant side from everybody, but if it's clear for all to see, then I've clearly failed.
I'm sorry.
"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel. Make us all feel wonderful. We'll never forget."
