Coping...*Could be a trigger*

xXcanthelpmyselfXx · 30-03-2011, 07:04 AM

I wish my parents cared enough to get me help. I've been clean from cutting for nearly a month, and I know that's good. I'm doing better in school, and I'm happy...but I still get anxiety attacks...almost more than before. I think before, I knew I was miserable and thought it was infinite....now that I'm happy again...I'm so afraid of relapsing. I know it happens, but this last one...it was bad. I don't know if I could handle another one...and my mind jumps to cutting as a way to release all the stress. It's an internal battle now everyday not to..even when I was sad everyday, it was never this hard to fight it...I don't understand any of it anymore. I thought I cut because I was sad, but now I feel as though I desperately need it...Like it will solve my stress problems. My mind knows otherwise, but it's tricked easily. Logic and reason tell me the dangers, and how redundant it is to put myself through pain in order to cope with it....but it's like my brain doesn't care.. It's like it just wants the "high" (for lack of a better word) that I experienced my first time... I don't know, I'm sorry for all the posting...I apologize for wasting your time..

And thank you, everyone here at RYL...your support is nothing short of amazing.

tifflehan · 30-03-2011, 07:54 AM

Hi. As a parent, I know we sometimes get it wrong. I'm sure your parents do care about you but maybe they see you "doing better" and think it's not needed. If that makes sense.Have you asked them to get you some help? Maybe sit and talk with them, let them know whats going on inside. It's like I tell my daughter, no one can help you if they don't know whats going on.

xx

RosieRose89 · 31-03-2011, 05:05 PM

I have been clean from cutting for 1 year and 9 months now and it is STILL an everyday battle to not to go back to that. I was in a similar situation in high school when there was an incident at school and my mom didn't do anything even though she was called in and I know she knew about my cutting and it really frustrated me. It was until this year that I finally managed to get help. I wish so much that back then I sat down with my parents and told them I needed help, or got the help on my own. Please, if you are wishing they would get you help...sit with them and talk to them. And if they don't listen talk to someone else you trust. Please do this for yourself...I wish I did when I was younger

PassedExpectations · 01-04-2011, 10:57 PM

have you talked to them and explained that while you're doing better, you are still struggling? you can say that you want some help to learn how to really deal with your emotions so that you won't slip back into harming and all that again. a proactive approach to the situation.

you could make yourself a list of reasons not to cut to have with you to look at when you need reminding........