does anyone feel, wrong, for lack of better words cutting in certain areas?
like i had to cut my left arm, & i have to cut my right leg. anything else seems wrong. like, i cant cut my right arm, cause it feels pure weird, same goes for my left leg. can anyone else relate?
2nd question - does anyone else get really bad moody-mardy-arse-ness when they havent cut in a certain amount of time?
i dont do the cutting areas, i stick to both my arms.
I dont get mardy, but i feel very distant from everything and it increases the suicidal thoughts alot more :(
so a mood change is definitely a standard thing
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Nobody knows me im cold
Walk down this road all alone
Its noones fault but my own
Its the path ive chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever
I can't cut my right arm either, it's too weird for me. But my left arm is the only place I cut anyway. But if on the odd occasion I cut my leg, it's my left one again. I don't like hurting my right side for some reason..
Not sure about the second question. I can't say I really noticed.
I use to mostly cut on my right arm, because I'm left handed. Eventually I ran out of room and started on the left, so learned how to do that... I ended up doing it on the left the most after that, so when I got my tattoo I put it on that arm as a reminder not to do it.
Now i just do it on my legs. For a while there it was only the left leg, again, ran out of room and have switched to the right. I will only do the inside of my arms/top of my thighs though. I've seen people do their ankles/calves/biceps etc. and to me I can't do that. It wouldn't feel "right"
As for getting moody; I get jittery when I haven't done it in a while. I twitch around like a chihuahua on speed and my mind tends to start to race. It usually gets to a point where it's ALL I can think about, until I do it. And then it's a sense of calm and life is back to "normal".
I hope that isn't too much detail... just trying to answer honestly ;)
I only cut my left arm. i am right handed so it might have something to do with it. But i have tried and it hurts to much. my left arm has become numb to pain now. i do it all the way around too. top and bottom. Legs just feel wierd for me.
2. I am a very angry and emotional person anyway. but i think it does have an effectl.
"This girl's seen a lot of pain but this girls gunna smile again, she knows that a flower grows everytime
It rains and this girls got a lot of dreams, she knows that tommorrow aint what it seems, she might not solve a mystery tonight...
But this girls gunna be alright"
1 - Yes, it doesn't have the same effect if it's not on my upper thighs. Though it can be either leg. Also, I have an issue with not considering it to count as SI if I do it anywhere else, which is really silly I know, but hey that's the way my brain works.
2 - No, I don't notice it affecting me in that way.
i can cut anywhere to be honest. i tend to do it on my hips because it is easy to hide. i have done it on my right wrist, left arm and shoulder (although didnt give me satisfaction because shoulder skin is harder to break) left anke, left thigh.
i do tend to get abit touchy when i havnt done it for some days.
I mostly just cut where it's accessible and 'easy' to do it. I'm right handed, so normally where I can reach with that hand. After not cutting for a while, it really starts getting to me. Even if I'm in a good mood, I feel like I have to do it :/
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