do you ever just feel numb? right now im sitting here trying to work out how i feel.
im not happy, im not sad. i feel no emotion.
im simply tired, tired of not feeling anything or feeling too much.
and im scared of when i will all of a sudden get this rush of emotion.
i could either be the happiest girl in the world, or i could be thinking about suicide, then i can change from one to the other in a split second.
i just want to feel normal emotions like everyone else, for once.
I know exactly what you mean. I actually think thats the worst way to feel, for me, anything can happen when I'm numb. And I tend to go to further extremes just to feel. Numb is like no mans land, stuck in the middle of nothing. Sorry, I know I'm not exactly saying anything useful. But you're not alone, and I hope you're ok...xXx
*hugs* I know that feeling... pretty unpleasant :/ It's so weird... I can be so happy one moment, then so depressed the next. Or vice versa. Do you think you could go for a walk or something? Sometimes I find that helps to not feel so numb. Or maybe doing something you enjoy and brings good feelings.
I hope you're doing alright with this... send a PM if you want to talk
*more hugs and love*
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We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
You pretty much summed up how i feel, in a twisted way its nice to know im not the only one feeling this. most of the time i feel so apathetic, numb. my friend who knows about my SI asks how i feel and i honestly dont know what to say as i myself have no idea. i no longer have good and bad days but good or bad hours. i wish i could tell you something more helpful, a way of stopping it, but all i can say is that your not alone.
even not hearing advice, just knowing im not the only one so i dont feel half as crazy is just as good :) i can go frfom one extreme to the other so quickly it mad.
All the freakin' time.
Half the time, I forget that I even have emotions.
I don't really have much advice but I wanted to let you know you're definitely not alone in this one. I hope you're okay.
That's normal-ish, at least, for SIers. I'm numb constantly (I have been for a few months), and it sucks. Not sure how common it is with depression, but it's a really common thing with SI, from my experiences.
"We're called to hold our hands against the wounds of a broken world, to stop the bleeding."
-Don Miller
