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12-03-2011, 01:45 PM
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Join Date: Mar 2011
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I dont know anymore :(
I am freaking out! I have been fighting and fighting and fighting the urge to cut and overdose. I have been 4 months clean from cutting and 2 years clean of drug abuse. But lately each day it get harder and harder. I have come to the point of the blade on my skin but then i some how muster enough to put the blade away. I dont know what to do, im seriously freaking i feel that it is the only thing that will help cause all my friends but 3 are mad at me cause im putting SCHOOL 1st and actually getting great grades! But they claim im ignoring them which im not im just busy. My other two friends are telling me im doing great and the only ones who see what im doing and actually believe im doing what i need too. IM SO LOST i just wish i was perfect
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12-03-2011, 03:55 PM
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I'm not worth the air I breathe
Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: US
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It's great you're 4 months free from SI and 2 years of drug abuse! That is already a huge accomplishment :) Nobody is perfect... we all make mistakes; but the good thing is that we can learn from those mistakes and become stronger.
I'm sorry things are tough with your friends :/ It does sound good that you're doing so well in school, and I'm glad some of your friends support you in that. I'm glad to hear you're doing this for yourself too :)
Do you do anything to distract yourself when you feel the urge to cut or OD? Maybe you could find something you enjoy to take your mind off of what's going on. Some things that help me are listening to music, writing poetry, or getting out of the house. I've heard that holding an ice cube to your skin works pretty well too. It creates some pain, but doesn't do any harm.
I hope you're doing alright! Always feel free to send a PM if you need to talk
*hugs and love*
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"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
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13-03-2011, 11:22 PM
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I'm not worth the air I breathe
Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: US
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How are you doing now? *hugs* Hope things are a bit better...
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"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
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