I'm hurting

CandiChaos · 07-03-2011, 01:17 AM

I'm new, by the way.

But I'm having a bad depression day. I feel dead because I'm never noticed or cared about. I seriously don't have friends. I don't have anyone that I can count on. I'm lonely and I feel like if I killed myself, I still would be unnoticed. I guess I just need attention. I'm so alone.

PassedExpectations · 07-03-2011, 01:47 AM

welcome to ryl *hug*

its really difficult when you feel that no one cares about you. and i know that you probably won't beleive me when i say this, but i'm saying it anyways.... there are people that you don't think of who would definately miss you if you were gone, and who would want to help you if they had the opportunity. its just that people aren't always very good at letting others know that they're cared about.

if you want to work on building new relationships, you could try joining a club at school, or trying a new activity (preferably one with people who will be positive and trustworthy). or you could try finding somewhere to volunteer (having a shared cause can let you get to know someone really well), or find a job that won't stress you out or trigger you. its so easy to isolate yourself when you feel like you're describing, and it is easier at the time, but the more you pull away from people, the harder it will be to go back to doing more social things. and if you pull away, you lose supports when you are really needing support more than ever. plus, if you pick the right things, getting out can really pick up your spirits and get you out of your own head and distracted and focused on something else.

Porcelain Child · 07-03-2011, 06:24 PM

I understand that you are feeling no one notices you and you feel alone.. I am sorry you are having a tough time.. Have you got any professional help? If you are feeling suicidal, please tell someone, or go to your A+E and tell them and they can support you..

CandiChaos · 08-03-2011, 10:58 PM

Thank you

I've tried to get professional help, but I can't afford it. I don't know what A+E is, but I'm always thinking about suicide.

Confused_Reality · 08-03-2011, 11:04 PM

I'm really sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad but hey five to a fellow newbie! :) The very fact that I have joined this kind of a forum suggests lonliness for me anyway. I mean, nobody in my life understands and that makes me feel isolated and although life isnt really worth living.

BridgesAndBalloons · 09-03-2011, 12:22 AM

A+E is like ER, in the UK you can go to A+E if you're feeling suicidal and they can help. Are there any charity organisations that might offer cheaper mental health care?

I have no friends, and sometimes I feel lonely but more people than you'd realise would notice if you weren't there anymore. I can understand bad depression days, I have major depressive disorder and some days everything just feels too much.