why is it ...

[jnr]

why is it i can have up to 2 weeks clear, then suddenly im at it every day again and my arms are in tatters :/ i dont get it and i wish i did cos its driving me nuts!

[dollpart]

did anything trigger it?
x

[jnr]

i dont know for sure :/ thats the worst bit. im trying to figure it out, i think im getting there. my head is all over the place trying to think it through, i cant keep my thoughts straight.

[finding.my.wings]

part of this pattern could be that self harm is addictive, so one can only go so long before they need the high so to speak.

[tifflehan]

Very addictive, yes. Sending hugs your way. xxx

[CrystalMc]

I think it is very addictive and thats part of the problem, sometimes i don't know what causes it either. Don't know if your already doing this but my counsellor recommended keeping a little diary just a short intro to say what happened/how it made you feel(or just how your feeling in general if nothing specific has happened)/what you did about it(if you harmed or not)/how you felt afterwards. She said it helps to find out what triggers you have and try and spot them earlier or avoid them altogether.
Although I adapted it slightly and write a little entry every day even if i haven't si'ed because then on the days when i feel ok it's a positive side too and you know you can feel ok when you look back at it.
Hope your doing ok x

[jnr]

CrystalMc, great suggestion. will try it. thanks for the support everyone. gave up trying to figure this instance out, it was doing me no good - my poor brain was getting tied up in knots!!

[tifflehan]

I do the diary thing. I do it every day though even with no s/h. Costs a bomb in writing books!! Got a hello kitty one at the mo!!!!! xxx

[CrystalMc]

Glad to have helped :) hope your doing ok x