I trusted two people with the fact that I cut.. and now word has gotten around in my dorm hall, and now 9 people know. Someone is telling other people and I don't know who, and too many people know for my liking.
It's making me triggered and I have nowhere to run to, to get away from it all. I'm scared that more people are going to find out.. I don't know what to do.
Hi neko sorry to hear your situation, I'm sure your friends had good intentions maybe you should say to them again how much you don't want people to find out, pm me if you ever need someone to talk too I'm always hear
*hugs* I'm so sorry about your friends, and having so many people know :'(. Don't give up though- you can still pull through! I know this is so tough (I can't do it), but, you don't need to run. It's very unfortunate your friend told more people... that doesn't make trusting people any easier :/ I really hope you're doing alright with this! I wish there was something I could say to make it all go away :/ You can always send a message if you need to talk
*more hugs and much love*
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
I'm sorry this happened to you - it's harsh when you feel backed into a corner. People in my life found out similarly... one friend noticed, and even though I swore her to secrecy, soon everyone knew.
You might feel overwhelmed, but this doesn't have to be a disaster. I agree that it would be good to talk to your friends again, and let them know how you feel about this, and that this is something very personal for you. It's your call who gets to know this, and yours alone, and it's very disrespectful to just spread the word.
On the other hand, eventually it could turn out to be a relief. Don't turn and run - keep your head high, and carry on. Sounds a bit like "fake it till you make it" but it's not completely wrong. By next week, people will have something new to talk about. And you won't have to hide so much. I found that to be awesome after a while.
Keep talking on here if that helps. I know things must seem pretty scary right now, but you can get through this. x
thanks for all the support guys..
When I told those two friends I self injured they promised they wouldn't tell anyone, and I already talked with the one about how them telling people was making it worse on me, but it seems that hasn't stopped them... So I don't know what else to do.. and I'm worried about my mom finding out as she works here at the school.
My mom knows I used to cut, but she thinks I've stopped, and her learning I do it again will kill her.. I can't stand to disappoint her again.. but I don't want to stop cutting..
I know everyone is different and every situation is unique, but i live in university halls and also self harm, many of mine are in obvious places such as my arms, and i dont really make an effort to hide it.
Yes i get the occasional look and odd comment, but im with my friends who know the true depth of my problem. Just make sure at all times your with someone you trust and it gives you so much more confidence, also its amazing how many people will offer a hand in help, just look at this forum for example.
All the best, if you wanna pm me more then welcome
xx
