***definite Trigger, Please Please Please Be Careful***

VampiricShadow · 21-02-2011, 05:24 AM

TRIGGER WARNING: Eating disorders/death

Oh God I'm sorry this is a horrible trigger and I just want to warn you now that if you read any farther, just... be very careful and make sure you're completely emotionally stable and maybe listening to happy music or something cause I thought I was emotionally stable today and apparently I wasn't...

So umm... I was reading a blog and the girl mentioned a Twitter by (I don't know the right term.. sorry =/) a girl who was anorexic and died and for some stupid, idiotic reason I decided to click it and on it there were her last tweets before she died, talking about how she knew she was dying.. that that was her last tweet... then a few more tweets from people at her funeral, and just saying she was gone. Oh God... It just freaked me out so bad cause my aunt died from anorexia and I kept thinking "merde were her last moments like that? Did she know death was right there?" This girl was 14. FOURTEEN.

So I just shook and cried and drank some water and made myself throw up cause somehow that calmed my heart a bit cause it was doing some weird stuff but I can't stop thinking about it and crying.. It's just so...scary.

I guess I'm just discovering that teenagers really aren't invincible. It's heart breaking though

I'm really sorry =/ I wasn't sure where else to put this... say this... I can't just leave it to myself it hurts too much

I'm sorry

Pi.R^2 · 21-02-2011, 09:54 AM

*hugs*
don't be sorry, I'm glad that you shared :)
Anorexia is truly a terrible and dangerous illness. But I guess it's important to remember that there is hope- people can also beat anorexia.
You mention that you made yourself throw up- is this something that you do often?
Take care.

88shelz · 21-02-2011, 02:59 PM

Anorexia is a serious illness and can steal the life away from anyone no matter how old.

Grrr.... · 21-02-2011, 03:21 PM

*hugs* I'm sorry this was such a rude awakening for you, but it sounded like something you needed if you didnt know that teenagers or any people for that matter are not invincible... Try to avoid making yourself throw up dearie, it can ruin your body.... and I completely agree with what 88shelz said... *hugs* and dont be sorry, its okay to share things with all of us. thats why we are here. If you need something feel free to PM me. *hugs* take care. try to stay safe.

VampiricShadow · 21-02-2011, 05:58 PM

Thank you <3 I did need it I guess... but I wish it hadn't come in the form of a 14 year old girl who had her whole life ahead of her

talaiporia · 21-02-2011, 09:19 PM

It's always tragic when people die; particularly people who are young, and when it could have been avoided.

But like Grr said, maybe this is the wake-up call you need?

VampiricShadow · 22-02-2011, 10:09 PM

I don't think wakeup calls work on me... sigh. Maybe it just needs to sink in.

Prairie Gal · 22-02-2011, 10:15 PM

You can get better. We're pulling for you.

Sometimes it is dangerous to venture over to the dark side, Vampire.
Just sayin'. Whenever I see your name, I think Angel. :) Either way,
you are precious and your life is precious.

VampiricShadow · 22-02-2011, 10:20 PM

Thank you <3

I don't really think I'm a vampire or anything... It's just a comfortable name to use. My real nickname is actually a fruit ^_^

I find that ironic though... I jokingly told my friend I was an angel today cause he said I was mean XD

Thank you though <3

Prairie Gal · 22-02-2011, 11:08 PM

I love your sense of humour!! LOL!!!!