I'm losing everything. I finally find the guy I love, and I lose him. He had a seizure, and now he remembers nothing. All I need is for him to tell me everything he feels about me, and I can't have it. This worry, this fear of losing him mixed in with stress from school, has driven me crazy. This girl in my 2nd period french class, she was playing with her lighter. She asked another girl if she could press the lighter against her wrist, and she said no. I turned to her and said give me the lighter, I heated it up for about 5 minutes, and I pressed it against my wrist. It hurt, and she had to stop me from keeping it there, and now, it looks like a first degree burn, according to my health teacher. He thinks it happened though by me stopping someone from smoking and it happened on accident. All I can think since I did it yesterday, was how much I want to do it, and how much its my fault my boyfriend had a seizure. I started cutting again too, and its been since I last slipped, about 3 weeks. I need help. Can someone help me?
How does it feel, knowing your barely alive
See through bloodshot eyes, your left empty inside
There I was, strung out and drug through the mud
I must agree, you're just like me.
And when you die,I won't be at your wake
No eulogy from me,Just a smile on my face
And while God might be busy,With judging your soul
I will have slept with the girl,that you loved most!
~FALLING in REVERSE
I've also told, when asked what I would do if I lose the guy I am currently with, I'd try to kill myself. Which it is the truth. I love him and can't lose him.
How does it feel, knowing your barely alive
See through bloodshot eyes, your left empty inside
There I was, strung out and drug through the mud
I must agree, you're just like me.
And when you die,I won't be at your wake
No eulogy from me,Just a smile on my face
And while God might be busy,With judging your soul
I will have slept with the girl,that you loved most!
~FALLING in REVERSE
i really do not have any advice or anything. i just wanted to let you know i read your post and you are not alone. if you need to talk my inbox is always open...try and take care of yourself, okay?
I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside. ~ Girl Interrupted
I hurt myself before others get the chance...
I hurt myself because others hurt me and I can't stand the pain...
To tell the truth, I'm afraid of recovery because it means I have to let go...
I only have my boyfriends brother, but I haven't been able to contact him since wednesday. My parents don't care, and my friends don't understand.
How does it feel, knowing your barely alive
See through bloodshot eyes, your left empty inside
There I was, strung out and drug through the mud
I must agree, you're just like me.
And when you die,I won't be at your wake
No eulogy from me,Just a smile on my face
And while God might be busy,With judging your soul
I will have slept with the girl,that you loved most!
~FALLING in REVERSE
