Okay, so I finally found enough strength to ring up the doctors surgery to make an appointment to speak to my doctor about SH and how I've been feeling.
My appointment is on monday next week (21st feb) and I'm getting quite worried and nervous about it.
Like, I know that I need to get some proper help, because I can't continue the way I'm going, but I'm really scared.
I'm not very good with the whole 'face to face' talking. In fact, it terrifies me.
So if anyone who has gone through this has any advice on what I can do to calm down/prepare for this, it would be much appreciated.
Also, anyone who has done this, what sort of things will the doctor talk to me about and ask me?
Yeah, I'm basically getting stressed and worried over it all :/
Don't spend your life waiting for the storm to pass, just learn to dance in the rain
Well done for finding the strength to go! That's really brave, and a big step :)
For me, the worst part was bringing up the topic, when she said 'how can I help you', and I just said "ummm, I'm here about... my mood". And then after that it got easier as she was asking the questions and it was easier to answer than to actually bring stuff up. I would say that the best thing to do is make a little list of any symptoms you have, to make sure you don't forget anything whilst you're there. And if you don't think you'll be able to bring up the topic of self-harm etc, then maybe you could write it down and just show it to the doctor? I know saying the 's-h' word out loud can be terrifying sometimes!
I can't guarantee what a doctor will say, but for me she asked questions about my background, what I was studying etc, and how I had been feeling. I did a little questionnaire where you just get to tick boxes, and that helps the doctor to understand the scale of your problems.
Thankyou so much! That really did help :)
Feeling quite a bit more confident now, thought still kinda nervous.
It is difficult to actually say sh, so maybe writing it down would be easier.
I'll let you know how it goes, thankyou :') xx
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First of all well done for making an appointment, that is a brave first step to take. I know the thought of going to the doctor's can be really scary but they will probably have dealt with this before and generally most of them are pretty understanding. I agree with writing things down, that way if you feel unable to say what you need you can start with just giving the doctor a piece of paper as sometimes this makes it easier. All the best.
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on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Yeah, thanks, I'll let you know how it goes.
I know I shouldn't be scared, but I still really am. I don't think there is anything that is gonna stop me being scared in all honesty. But I guess I've just gotta suck it up and do it :( x
Don't spend your life waiting for the storm to pass, just learn to dance in the rain
heya....just a thought maybe if you write your feelings down and then show it to your gp if you dont think you can say it face to face....maybe do it in bullet points so that its short and your gp can ask questions off what you have written ....hugs xx
Okay, so I had my doctor's appointment today and it wasn't as scary as I was expecting it to be. I did write stuff down and showed him that, it made it so much easier, so thanks for suggesting that guys.
I'm gonna make an appointment for about three weeks time to check my progress, and he is referring me to a therapist, but that could take several weeks.
I did break down crying at one point, but my friend was with me for support so she just hugged me and stuff, I took a while to calm down, but I did. And the doctor was really nice, he just kept chatting to me to calm me down.
I'm feeling so much happier now, just by actually talking to someone.
The doctor said he suspects I suffer from depression, but a therapist will be the one to diagnose me if I do.
I tried to tell my doctor everything, I told him about the SH, feeling low, crying all the time and considering suicide. But I couldn't bring myself to tell him that I have attempted suicide. I just couldn't do it. But I told him everything else.
Thanks for the support you guys gave me, it means so much <3
Don't spend your life waiting for the storm to pass, just learn to dance in the rain
Talaiporia: still feeling kinda shaken up from everything, but a lot more confident in myself, I'm really nervous about seeing a therapist though. Don't know why, I just am.
Pi.R^2: thankyou, I'm just glad it wasn't has difficult as I was expecting it to be! Yeah I'll let you know when I get an appointment with a therapist.
Thankyou xxxx
Don't spend your life waiting for the storm to pass, just learn to dance in the rain
Glad it went well with the doctor. It is normal to be anxious about seeing a therapist as they are new but once you get the first appointment over and done with it does get easier. Hold on there xxx
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
