Okay, after winding up in hospital last week from an OD i've decided it is time to sort my screwed up life out. But i can't go it alone. If anyone else wants to go it with me, trying to quit SIin etc, please do it with me cus i need the extra support.
I have a lot of problems in my life n so i've decided to sort them out one at a time, by listing what problem i'm trying to sort out each week and listing ways to go about it. Hopefully i will reach my targets. If anyone else wants to set themselves targets in order to 'recover their life' please do and i will support you all the way!
If this don't make sence i appologize. xx
So Kill me with the love you never gave...
Scarlet tissues and empty pill packs,
she lay there motionless, theres no going back.....
1. Improve my relationship with my Ex somehow...by: 1. Being less arguementive and generally being nicer... 2. Admiting i did wrong and stop blaming him... 3. Seeing things from his prespective and getting him to see them from mine...
2. Decide on wether to go back to college or do something else...by: 1. Having a careers interview... 2. Talk to my mum and dad... 3. Decide on realistic aims...
Wish me luck! 6 days cut free today!
So Kill me with the love you never gave...
Scarlet tissues and empty pill packs,
she lay there motionless, theres no going back.....
Aw this is great, that your taking positive steps to get back in control of your life!
Well done on the 6 days!
I wish i had the strength to do this, i really admire you hun <3
This is really, really awesome and you're doing so well! Congrats! Keep it up. xo
"When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaky feeling you'll find that love actually is all around.”
That is fantastic sweetheart and you are certainly not alone. I really think setting yourself these targets are a great idea.
Big congratulations on the six days free too!
How are things going at the moment?
Kiran
xx
This is one of *the* most positive and more importantly pro-active threads that I have seen in a while.
Working through things is great... and do brainstorm with people as they are likely to have even more suggestions for you as well! If you'd like to discuss anything at all.. I'm game.
Best of luck and keep it up lovely!
Chloe xx
p.s don't forget to treat yourself when you get to your mini goals =)
=) thanks all my lovelys. Today i am a week free =D
I've been and seen a careers advisor this morning regarding whether to switch college or not and am going to talk to my parents about it tonite so already getting some where =)
As for the ex, hes doing my head in at the moment but i am hopefully going to speak to him to night and hope we can talk properly for once.
Anyone else need support and advice? =) xx
So Kill me with the love you never gave...
Scarlet tissues and empty pill packs,
she lay there motionless, theres no going back.....
I am so glad to see you taking such positive steps in sorting out the problems in your life, and that you know that you can do it in small achievable goals, I'm glad that you have not tried to over do yourself! And I agree with klo flo everytime you achieve one of these goals, do something to treat and reward yourself - even if its just a bar of your favourite chocolate just something to say to yourself "I achieved what I set out to do", but equally if you don't succeed one of these goals in your week don't forget you can keep trying! If you ever need any support, feel free to contact me through the website or on msn. Keep going!
=( i'm 9 days free today n all i want to do is cut, cut n cut again!
The suicidal thoughts are back n i can't keep on like this.
I've sorted out my college stuff but my ex hates me. he actually HATES me. He said he doesn't want to know me nemore n is gna pretend i don't even exsist. How could he? After everything we've been through! I hate him so much, i wish he was dead! No.. i wish i was dead.
So Kill me with the love you never gave...
Scarlet tissues and empty pill packs,
she lay there motionless, theres no going back.....
Hold on, sweetie, hold on. You're doing so well. Remember all that positivity and how proud everyone is of you. Try to keep from cutting if you can, but if you have, that doesn't mean you can give up on recovery, it's just a little slip on the way.
As for your ex, we all say things we don't mean and wish we hadn't said. He may be angry at you but I'm sure he doesn't hate you. And it doesn't matter what he thinks of you - what matters is that YOU know deep inside that you can get better and make changes for the best in your life. He hurt your feelings, but sod him. This is YOUR life.
Be brave.
I'll strip myself to death as to a bed that longing has been sick for - WS
That amazing hun well done for taking postive steps that's great *hugs*
Believe in yourself. Take Care xx
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
Never mind what he said to you don't give up! Prove him wrong, show him you CAN do it you have already made two postitive steps, talking to him can wait, keep going I believe you can do it
In The Wake Of All The Terror And The Hell, I Am Constantly Reminded All The Crosses That I Bear. You want to see me burn, I am living fire. You will know me by the scars I bear.
See the pain in my eyes See the scars deep inside My God, I'm down in this hole again. Everyone's asking questions No place is safe I'll forfeit resurrection To escape the pain I hate my life.
Eye'm sorry eye'm ugly, eye'm failing eye'm angry, eye'm fuct up eye'm different
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