I got discharged from my Psychiatrist on Wednesday. For the first time in over 5 years i am considered stable and "sane" enough not to need a psych!
I am still under the care of the MHT but i will liaise via my GP.
I guess thats good news right?
Recovery is ****ing hard. the illness is the "easy" part.
I just wanted to say that if an old **** up like me can get this far then so can others who have so much more than i could ever hope for.
Thank you
Matthew xxx
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
Mathew, that's not just good news! It's amazing, fantastic, wonderful news! I'm so proud and happy for you! Woohoo! Go Mathew! Go Mathew! You're an inspiration! Wow!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
It's fantastic Matthew. I'm really proud of you.
Mwah! xxx
There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'.
The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass!
And I know right now, your probably beating yourself up and thinking of ways to destroy yourself! well dont! Because as you said, it has been a hard battle, and if you go back, we will all come and drag you back to this point.
But still, make sure you are using all your new skills. Asking for help, talking about things, progressing inthe right direction!!
You can do it penguinboy.
Thank you. I still dont feel "right" but at least i dont feel as bad. Motivation is hard. 3 days to work myself up to going to the gym lol. Gonna try and go today.
Theres a sadness and a heavy melancholy that comes with recovery. Its like waking up and thinking "of ****, did that really just happen to me?".
Ive not quite gotten to the "hope" part yet and i still cry a lot but perhaps one day soon ill feel awake and full of energy and alove and ..................happy?
You know what the biggest difference is?
for years i thought i was making it all up. I thought i was 100% in control of how i felt. I was convinced i made everything happen myself. The difference now is that when i try to do good and healthy and helpful things "it" is still there.
currently i am trying to figure how bad "it" actually was/is? I cant seem to find a benchmark for which to pin it against.
.....and yes Rainy i couldnt have done it without those puppies of love to help me on my way :P
~Phoenix~ is my Little Sister of Awesomeness and Self-Delusion :P Bitter Angel is my Mitten Animad is my Top Trump All Im Living For - Is my beautiful and special daughter who isnt called Kim but will moan if i dont add her :P
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