I cant cope!

[daydream identity]

I feel like i want to take an overdose because i feel so confused and angry.
I honestly don't think that i can deal with other people and wish that i could cope with just being on my own without any influence from anyone. I want to harm so badly but keep stopping myself because i don't want liver damage and i don't want to be sick and feel nauseous. I don't want scars either but feel quite confused with the feelings im having.
I just want a break away from myself and everything in my life. The things that im not being able to deal with aren't even big things at all and other people probably would be able to deal with them.
Its just that i feel that my house mate just criticizes everything i do. For example what ever i say she just makes it seem like its a fault within me. I don't even know if im just overly sensitive but for example i feel that i have to constantly be aware if im making too much noise. I just don't want to spend any time with her but live in the same house. she is a lovely person and i feel really awful to be typing this.I wish i could be assertive but i cant. I would love to live on my own but cannot afford this on benefits
I hate myself so much and i wish sometimes i could take an overdose without worrying about the consequences but i now do which annoys me. I just feel like i haven't got enough tablets to do the overdose that i want and that annoys me as well. If i could just disappear for a bit and then come back i would like that.
There just seems to be a part of me that isn't designed to be in the human race because i cant deal with other people.

[Pi.R^2]

*hugs*
could you have a word with your flatmate, let her know that you're aware that you're probably being a bit paranoid, but that you're having a really rough time and would appreciate it if she could be understanding?
Well done for not taking an OD so far, you are right, it would cause liver damage which could be problematic in the future, aside from the fact that it would make you feel rotten.
Are there distraction techniques you could use to try to release the anger, without damaging yourself?

[~hunni~]

I'm sorry things are difficult right now. I think you really need to try and talk to your housemate about how you feel - maybe not right now because it sounds like you're not really in the right frame of mind - but hopefully you will soon feel a bit more stable and you can have a calm discussion about the situation.

As for right now, it seems like you want to OD because that gives you some time and some space and everything stops - but you know it won't make you feel better in the long term - so please try and do something else that can give you some kind of escape. Personally, I always just try and get some sleep - I know some people find it difficult to sleep, but if you can, that is a way to have a break from things for a while without hurting yourself.
Stay safe
xxx