50kilos is low hun, you said you went over bt knew it was muscle, and I know you weighed more but you would have looked better when you were toned, I always think that toned looks better than skinny.
Starving does so much damage to your body, sorry I don't have any good advice about this, but pleaes try and eat a little bit more.
I'm sorry you're going through a bad time right now with your friends, it's not fair of them all not to speak to you because you had a fight with one of them *hugs* Is there anyone in the group who's nicer than the others who you think would be more likely to talk to you?
They'll probably start speaking to you again soon, in the mean time, keep recovering so you can show that you're not letting them get to you. Starving yourself will only make you miserable, if you recover you can show them how you're happy and a good person to be around and they might come round quicker.
If your parents observe your eating it's only because they care and don't want to see you make yourself ill. They might be able to give you some extra support and encourage you to recover so it could help you.
Take care
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