There's not much to that really, it's just that I've just realised now that looking at my scars fading makes me want to make more. I know that sounds sick and twisted, wondering if anyone else has this? Is there a way to conquer it?
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
I don't really know how to get rid of this feeling, but I wanted to let you know that I often feel the same way. I don't think it sounds sick and twisted of you at all.
Could drawing on yourself with red pen or something help a little? So that you have a mark on your skin, but you haven't SIed? Or else, I found that the Butterfly Project helped me a little with these particular urges, because it was something I could concentrate on aside from my scars.
Thank you, I guess I just wanted to be reassured that I'm not alone in thinking that because it makes me feel so bad. The first thing people would assume when they know someone in this situation is that they want to just get better, but it's not as easy or simple as that.
I think the Butterfly project is a good idea, I've tried it a couple of times before, thinking I might try it again now, thanks for reminding me.
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
I know others said it, but I'm the same. I don't feel the urge when my sacrs are still new but when they fade or heal I want to make more.
I think it's because I see it's not going to kill me and my body heals so quickly it doesn't make a difference after a few weeks whether I make new cuts or not. I always feel 'I won't cut again' when I have scars to look at...then they heal and I have nothing to feel regretful about and nothing to make me feel like I've let out my feelings enough. It's that too, the visual evidence that I did something to punish myself or release the feeling inside makes me feel good. I hope that doesn't sound cliche and pathetic, many people I talk to say that to me ^^;
That happens to me too :/ It's not very fun... my dad makes me put scar treatment on my marks, but I'm not ready to let them go yet
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
I feel the same way, and I'm sure that many others do as well. I think that to us, the scars represent our pain, our struggle. They're a visible flaw, a visible sign of distress. When my scars fade, I feel the urge to make new ones because to me, when they fade, it looks like I'm getting better, but that's not really the truth, is it?
If you need someone to talk to, PM me.
<3Lira. Stay Strong!!!!
If you think the scars on the outside are bad you don't want to see the ones on the inside.
Self-injury is a sign of distress not madness. We should be congratulated on having found a way of surviving.- Cory Anderson
