Does this happen to anyone else?

Fitz20 · 09-02-2011, 01:05 AM

This is probably a stupid question and a waste of your time but I'm gonna ask anyway.. So my friend knows I cut and we fight about it constantly.. Actually we have started to fight about everything but today she said well texted the words cut or cutting and my stomach got like butterflies and I felt like I was gonna throw up. Even thinking about it makes me feel all weird... Does anyone else ever feel like that?? Or am I just weird?

JaffaCake. · 09-02-2011, 01:43 AM

Sometimes.
If I see the word 'cut' or 'cutting' somewhere that's completely non self-harm related, it does make me sometimes feel a little funny.

Take care,
Em x

Lucy2you · 09-02-2011, 02:09 AM

It makes me feel weird a lot too. I'm doing a project for my forensics class about saw marks on bone. Lots of "cutting" there. I'm trying to get over it.

Gone. · 09-02-2011, 02:11 AM

Cut or cutting gets me briefly, or it used to. To be honest, it doesn't matter so much now to me because it can be used in so many different contexts. The only time I really hear it in an SI context is if I am saying I want to 'cut down' how much I hurt myself or something like that.

The word 'self-harm' however, now that, along with many other labels, I have a problem with.

Do you know why you feel queasy when thinking about it?

Fitz20 · 09-02-2011, 02:34 AM

Yah If I see it in context too that sometimes bothers me but not always... Thanks for replying. I think it makes me queasy Because I feel horribly guilty for everything especially cause I promised her I'd stop. Also she supposedly told our schools guidance counselor about me cutting again and stuff but i dont believe she did.. That's when she said cut cause she doesn't believe I've stopped. Well I haven't but still I tried to. But then I yelled at her and she purposely said it two more times.. That upset me which is why the reason I cut tonight. Ughh dumb life!!

lonely_hope · 09-02-2011, 03:01 AM

Ugh... I'm like that too. If anyone says anything that remotely reminds me of SI/ED or brings up bad memories, my mind starts spinning.

I don't think you're weird for that :)

gabrielle00 · 09-02-2011, 04:26 AM

Lately, reading or talking about blood has made me light headed, seeing my own does nothing and seeing it in movies doesnt bother me for some reason. I'm not sure why or anything.