Hey hun,
You aren't a jinx, and im sure things arent as bad as you think? It's maybe that your friends and family care, they don't want to see you in pain. I know its hard not to hurt people with the cutting, but i think it happens in alot of cases, because it doesnt just affect us, its affects the people that care, which is inevitable.
I'm sorry i dont have more good advice, put PM me anytime if you want to talk, ill listen =)
take care x
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