I know I'm new back on this forum I dont expect anyone to reply just need to getthis out of my head.
From the second I got up today all I've seen are cuts over my skin my veins begging and I'm not sure how to cope with it. Do i give in or do I not? I spent 4 and a half years 'clean' coping with the urges and never acting on them. My ex screws with my brain and where am I? Back to square one and wanting to open every scar on my body. I have nothing but the images of blood trickling down my body and I'm scared I'm going to act on them. I feel very pathetic putting my feelings down and feel that I should be coping better than I am. I think of her with her new girlfriend telling everyone shes happy. None of her friends knew I existed they all thought she was single. Maybe I shouldnt exist maybe I should just disappear off the radar. Good god I'd quite like to knock myself out right about now.
