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softhallelujahs · 28-01-2011, 10:19 AM

I just joined this site because tonight I cut myself for the first time since I was in high school. Since about September when I started up school again I've been up and down in terms of my emotions but it's been the past few weeks that have really been getting to me. I haven't had the urge to cut in so long, not since I was a sophomore in high school. But tonight I couldn't seem to stop myself, you know? The urge was too strong but now I'm disgusted and ashamed of myself. I'm just glad I found this website. I don't feel like I can talk to the people I know, and having this gives me some hope.

hiddenscars · 28-01-2011, 12:21 PM

Whats kinda scare is your story mimics mine in ways... except I couldn't quit till senior year... and I started again three weeks ago.... but the shame sucks... I'm here though...I mean, we gotta stick together, right? You can message me, if you wanna talk...

PassedExpectations · 28-01-2011, 03:45 PM

it sounds like you went a long time without cutting, and thats a great achievement. don't let the slip up overshadow all the times that you successfully resisted.

what helped you in the past to ride out the urges? maybe you could use those again, or change them a bit so that they're more new and interesting or more effective.

softhallelujahs · 28-01-2011, 07:12 PM

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Originally Posted by hiddenscars

Whats kinda scare is your story mimics mine in ways... except I couldn't quit till senior year... and I started again three weeks ago.... but the shame sucks... I'm here though...I mean, we gotta stick together, right? You can message me, if you wanna talk...

Thank you. That really does mean a lot.

softhallelujahs · 28-01-2011, 07:16 PM

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Originally Posted by PastExpiration

it sounds like you went a long time without cutting, and thats a great achievement. don't let the slip up overshadow all the times that you successfully resisted.

what helped you in the past to ride out the urges? maybe you could use those again, or change them a bit so that they're more new and interesting or more effective.

I try to keep myself busy, make sure I don't have time to think about it but last night I was just alone and sad and I think I was feeling rejected by someone I consider a close friend. When I was in high school I always had someone to talk and the past few months I've been feeling lonely. I also took up knitting back then which is something I could try again...just to keep my hands busy.