Diagnosis- Not sure how I'm supposed to feel.

Angel2fire · 24-01-2011, 07:58 PM

Today I actually found out what my diagnosis is. It's never really bothered me before. I was told I had BPD when I was 20 and I just accepted it...

Anyway, I needed a referal doing so I can go to a support centre. The pyschiatrist filled the form in, and under diagnosis he wrote "Emotionally unstable impulsive personality disorder." I know thats the 'new' name for BPD, but I've never heard the impulsive bit before. It does make a great deal of sense, as pretty much everything I do is on impulse.

But how am I supposed to feel? I hate it when people say, I cant help the way I am I have x,y,z but to some extent conditions can alter the way you behave or act.

I also feel like I have another label. But on the other hand it does explain a lot about the way I am.

How did other people re-act when you found out your diagnosis?

Thanks for reading :)

roiben · 24-01-2011, 08:02 PM

I will start by saying my diagnosis covers various forms of depression - so is different to yours. I can understand the thought though. My initial reactions was of denial and saying 'no, that is not me at all' and I gradually came to see that it did indeed explain a lot.

I think the key thing here, is not to look just at the diagnosis as a label on a box, but as a sign-post to your symptoms. If impulsivity is something you struggle with, what courses are there that could help with this? With the diganosis as BPD, would you have wondered about that as much?

I hope you find the referal helpful. Maybe speak with them about how you are feeling and see if you can use this knowledge to guide your future treatments.

Be gentle with yourself.
Roiben x

strawberry11 · 24-01-2011, 09:26 PM

besides my doctor and my school the only person that knows is my boyfriend and two of my closest friends. I think it bothered me more to know my diagnoses than anyone else I told.

dollpart · 27-01-2011, 06:22 PM

i am furious about mine... every time i think about it i feel shattered inside.

RecklessAbandon · 27-01-2011, 06:40 PM

I wish I had a diagnosis, at least then I would have some post to use to move forward.

mikey · 27-01-2011, 07:10 PM

When I got my diagnosis a lot of things clicked into place. I still struggle with the enormity of it though, the effect it's going to have on the rest of my life, the knowledge that I will (in all likelihood) be on medication for the rest of my life. But mostly I'm glad that I now have a diagnosis so I can get the right treatment.

xlaurenx · 27-01-2011, 08:15 PM

Eventhough am recovered I still remember been told my diagnosis a few years ago. My diagnosis was severe depression and traits of BPD. The BPD part i completely disagreed well at that time i was in deinal. The severe depression.. well with me i felt like it was the end of the world i kept thinking thats it for me then, trust me to have severe depression. I went through emotions of been really angry and upset. But i agree with roiben, about trying not to put myself in a box etc . Its hard I went through that also but your still you at the end of the day :)