Cack

[TheGiantPanda]

Just feel like cack right now, feel like OD'ing which is weird cus i havent done that for years, i normally just cut. I've noticed that when i leave work i always feel depressed, no idea why, i just do, and i have to have toilet breaks just to get some me time away from the shop floor and that fecking **** happy music they play all the time, really loudly, pisses me off big style. All i do is shelf stacking, hardly stressful and its after hours so there are no customers, plus most of teh time im on my own down an aisle doing a roll cage, so im trying to figure out why im feeling the way i do. Wana cry but cant cry, body wont let me :(

[StuckInReverse]

Sometimes we can feel depressed for no reason. Are you happy with your job? Is something going on outside of work that is stressful?

[TheGiantPanda]

Thanks. I'm just not happy in life, worried about the future and everyday life, the job is okay, its not what i want to be doing, but then i have no idea what i want to be doing, i feel like my life is going nowhere, tried lots of times to change it, my first job in 5 years, been there 8 weeks and old habits are creeping back in, ive cut at work twice, i dunno i just feel blahhhhhh and urghhhh. Thanks for reply

[StuckInReverse]

i totally understand about the worry for the future. It's scary not knowing whats ahead. Do you have anything that you LOVE doing? Sometimes when I get really depressed I draw or take a walk and photograph things :P Have anything like that you could do to cheer you up even a little?

[TheGiantPanda]

Not really, i love drinking tea, im drinking it now but still feel crap. I like wave watching but theres no wind for waves :( just wanna hide from the world and cry and cut. Sorry. Probably have another cup of tea and go bed, but i dont think il be able to sleep.