i've been advised, by friends, parents, & tutors to go back to my mental health worker at uni. it's obvious to everybody in real life that i'm not coping.
the only person i want to see, if i have to see someone is my old uni mental health worker, i connected with her, she helped.
the only thing is,
she was the one that referred me to EIT, who passed my onto the consultant psych, who then passed me on to psychotherapy. & the referral for psychotherapy never came through.
my mental health worker was really good, until (the way i see it) she thought she'd passed me on to EIT, who sadly couldn't work with me. i could go to my gp & be re-referred or chased up for psychotherapy, but i don't like the staff up at the centre at all, which would cause me more stress which, supposedly i don't know.
i'm difficult case, i'm aware of that, all doctors from all specialties agree. i know, that is i went into her office monday, i could arrange to see her, but i don't know how,
she promised me she'd go with me to the EIT assessment, which she didn't & then promptly never contacted me again.
i've not been told i cant contact her, or anything, i realize she may have felt in over her head with me, but other than that, i don't know what i can do.
there are so many things in (so-called) real-world that isn't fitting again, thats not right. & there is a lot riding on this right now, riding on me being ok enough, a degree, a flat, a job, 10 14 year olds, my boyfriend.
how the hell do i go back to seeing her? she's never told me i can't, but she just left me, when i needed help.
She didn't leave you. She did what she thought was best and referred you to the appropriate service.
I've been 'passed' by service to service and although it was difficult at the time, I ended up with a clinical pyschologist who is highly experienced.
The thing is, i have no support right now, I'm not sure where the referral for psychotherapy is but i was referred in April & haven't heard anything. So... tralalala.
The thing I'm trying to get at, if I need support now, as in next week & for the rest of term.
She has never said I can't see her, but she did promise to go to the assessment with me, which she didn't, she promised a lot, because she is normally in place with someone while they are referred & get help. Of course, she doesn't know that I was left without support, or at least, I don't think so.
I don't think I'm making sense I'm not saying what I want, as far as I am aware, I can make an appointment with her, & as I have no support and people don't think I'm coping this could be an idea,
except how, physically, I walk in her office, make an app. mentally, chirst? she thinks I have support (i'm guessing), but I don't, even if I see my gp & ask where this referral is, i'm still going to need someone untill CMHT see me.
is this making more sense now?
she had a duty of care, her duty of care was to be the go between for me, uni & cmht, she was to organize meetings to look after me & so uni could help & so CMHT could. except, she didn't.
Do you have an e-mail address for her that you could perhaps contact her through first? It sounds like there are a lot of loose ends from when you were last working with her that need to be sorted out - for example, why she didn't come to the assessment with you and why she didn't make further contact, because it seems that you're having to second-guess at the moment.
It sounds like you've been left in limbo a bit, by her and others, and I think with this in mind you'd be well within your right to request another appointment with her.
If you can e-mail first, or write, it might help for you to get some of the background explained before seeing her, for example, how you have essentialy been left without support by the CMHT, and to explore the possibility of having her support at the moment.
If you can't write/e-mail, perhaps phone. I'm not sure what advice to give about how to mentally and physically approach her office, except to assure you that it seems perfectly acceptable to me. What do you fear with going to make an appointment?
I think she also needs to help you chase up this psychotherapy referral.
