Hello, not really sure if this is in the right place..apologies if not.
So I have been on the waiting list for an appointment with the CPN for a while now and I just got a call saying I can go in 2 weeks.
I'm terrified about going. I'm not really sure what to expect. Also I don't feel as though I should be going anymore because although I am still struggling I am feeling better just now. My mood has shifted drastically from how it was about a month ago and right now I don't feel as though I need any help.
I'm scared that if I go and the CPN can see that I'm doing better and haven't cut in a while she will think that I am just wasting her time.
She won't think that, on the first appointment(this is from my experience, my old CPN said to me she wanted me to tell her how my life has been and how it is now, and not off papers about me, but I don't know if yours will be the same) she will most likely assess you, your moods, your family life, home life, any traumas that have happened, your experiences with other professionals, how your thinking is, your eating patterns, what your sleeping is like, she may ask you if you've felt suicidal before/attempted suicide/if you feel suicidal at this moment in time, she will likely to ask you about your self harm, and how you are doing with it, last time you cut, etc, how you are doing with urges - she's basically going to try and get a picture of how life has been for you and how it is for you right now, and what she can provide for you in terms of support.
(Sorry that's so long!)
But basically, she's not going to think you're wasting her time just because in the past month you've felt better, she's going to be looking at how your life has been & how it is in the present.
Just because you've been feeling better doesn't mean you'd be wasting her time at all.
You're still struggling - you may still need support with that.
If you truly feel you don't need help, then you could tell her that & maybe talk to her about why you feel that way?
I agree completely with what sarah said. That she wont feel like your wasting her time. With me i was never meant to get a CPN though i did after i was in hospital for an od. Again she got a picture of how life was for me at the time. What i wanted to get from seeing her, about my sh, about the od, what made me do it , how many i had taken. etc. So pretty much was sarah said :)
My first appointment with a CPN was very difficult, but she was lovely. She did her best to put me at ease by asking easy questions first (about my family, what I was studying etc). Then she asked more about my mood, appetite, history of mental illness and all sorts of questions like that. I know that it's scary, but try your best to be open and honest.
Good luck and take care.
There are, it has been said, two types of people in the world. There are those who, when presented with a glass that is exactly half full, say: 'This glass is half full'. And then there are those who say: 'This glass is half empty'.
The world belongs, however, to those who can look at the glass and say: 'What's up with this glass? Excuse me? Excuse me? This is my glass? I don't think so. My glass was full! And it was a bigger glass!
Thanks for the replies, a little more relaxed now that I somewhat know what to expect.
I'm scared that I will forget to tell her things or I won't be able to answer some of her questions. I'm not very good at talking to people I don't know and when people ask questions about self harm and what not I get uncomfortable and tend to lie and I'm scared I'll do the same to her.
I know its hard hun but i bet there used to knowing that sh is hard to talk about when i saw my con for the first time. I zoned out for most of it , and i didn't even know she was my cpn til about a month or so later.
Instead of lying could you tell her you don't feel comfortable talking about it? Or write down the things you experience/feel about it on a piece of paper and give it to her?
