I had a bad day today. Been struggling with depression since my last baby was born. I guess it wasn't a horrible day though since I'm still here and I didn't try anything unwise. And I had a great night with my son.
I spent the whole of this past October in the hospital and since thence been feeling better even though some days are hard.
Thank you for asking!! It really means something to me just to have people around who care and understand.
Um, yeah, a lot things make it worse... too many to list! But, because of my emotional dysregulation, my moods go up&down like a rollercoaster. When my depression is taken over, it gets really bad though...
I'm on meds, but they don't work at all. No professional help either. Psychiatrist hasn't called back for months. Idiot. -.-
Hugs to all of you! I'm so glad you contracted for safety x.silence! How are you all doing this morning? I started a new medication last night and I'm sooo tired. But hey, I'm livin!
Uglyducklin you are not crashing anything. You are most welcome here!! I'm so sorry you are grieving like this. I can't imagine what you must be going through. Hugs!! Is this the first anniversary? The tenth? It must be hard. I'm sending you lots of hugs. Please stay safe, and post here again!
I'm trying to be happy for a day (well, since 1:00) you know what? It's 6:20 and i'm exhausted. I'm sick of burdening my friends. Of having scary or "visionary" dreams. I'm sick of me. And I don't see why I'm here (alive).
~Delancey
Please note that I don't use this account anymore. My account is now: backafterthebridge if you need me. Stay safe!
Looking4hope, it's exhausting to pretend to be well when you are not. You are not a burden and if anyone treats you that way it's their problem not yours. But I pretend a lot so I know what you are going through. I pretend and yet, those who really love me have not abandoned me when I haven't been able to keep pretending. I hope you feel better soon. Feel free to be yourself here. We know what it's like to feel hopeless. I believe that you are valuable and there is a huge reason why you are here... To be you. It's that simple. No pressure. Just you. Please post again.
Letmesign... I want to ask you if you are ok but you obviously aren't. You sound so sad and depressed. My heart goes out to you. Is there something specific that has you down or are you just down? I feel your pain. It sucks. Do you have people around who know and understand? Hugs
I prayed for all of you guys, and I know I should for myself too. God really does love us even when we can't feel Him there.
Oh cowgirl, please please don't! Do you have plans already? Does anyone know? I'm so glad you posted here but I really want you to let someone know your plans. Can you do that? You need some help dear girl. I don't want you to die. I'm so glad your previous attempts were unsuccessful.
I don't know if it helps any but I also attempted suicide in the past and now I'm glad it didn't work. Things can get better. But you need support.
Big hugs to you. So how far along are we talking here, do you have plans? And the means?
Yes I pretty much do have it planned. And my psychologist knows I want to die but I'm not sure she knows how badly. Nobody cares if I die. and I don't want to be locked up.
I'm gonna slit my wrists. I'm pretty locked on doing it next Tuesday or Wednesday.
Another day - Another play - Mold the clay
Straighten it out -Make it lay - Breathe upon the living creature Lungs burn - Heart pumps - Fingers twitch - Becomes alive -
