Waste of time...

[Steel Magnolia]

Ok, firstly Id like ta apologise for not being on RYL for 6 weeks caus I had no internet access. God I suffered greatly without it! Anyway, my parents have been forcing me to see a psychiatrist for the past year. They want me ta stop SIing. Im going there to make them happy. I have to dress in a bikini twice a day so that they can search me and the next time they find so much as a scratch I have to go to a hospital. They don't trust me. They don't get that cutting is my way of coping with things and for the minute I need it. Ok Ill get to the point, Ive been kind of making a half hearted attempt to quit but I really don't want to stop. How do I tell my psychiatrist that Im not ready to quit SIing just at the minute and Il stop when I feel ready to? It costs 250 euros every session for me to see her but whats the point if I know in my heart that I wont quit? Im just afraid ta tell my parents that... Im sooo sorry for rambelin and taking up space but Id really appreciate some help... I don't even know what I want for myself any more... Any ideas? Sory again...

Zoe xx

[Animad]

Maybe you should try talking to your parents (or maybe leaving them a note which would probably be easier) explaining about your SI and tellin them that its not something thats easy to stop. Let them kno that you're finding it hard and the pressure they are putting on you is possibly making it even worse. Talk to your psychiatrist about it too, see what they say, they miht know of ways you could explain it to your parents or offer to tell them if you can't. You shouldn't be pressurised to stop if you don't want to, its only likely to make it harder for you in the long run.

Hope that helps and makes sense, not too sure if it does though!
Kim

[Katey-lou]

i agree with the letter to your parents i soemtimes find it easier to get things down on paper than actually have 2 talk about it.
i'm sure if you talked it through with your psych and expalined that right now you dont want to stop. then i'm sure theyd help you, not to stop but just to look at things. they understand (or at least should do) that SH isnt a thing you can just stop! its a long hard proces and if your not ready then no ur not going 2 stop r u. in fact ppl forcing you to will probably make you worse.
even if u dnt wanna stop just yet am sure ur psych wil still see u and help you through whats causing you to SH.
hope that helped a little xx

[.ghost.]

You could also print off some information about SI for them and give it to them with the letter (if you decide to write one). People often are wary of SI and the more they know about it hopefully the more understanding they will become.

It's often harder to stop SIing when people are trying to force you to, and I think if you talk to your psych she would understand you and try to help.

Take care
xx