I didn't really know where to put this, but I think he deserves some sort of credit, somewhere.
You were the kid who everyone gave that "look" to. You know, that one where they just think you're stupid, have problems, etc. You'd get depressed, but you always hung in there. You barely had a family, but you made one out of your few closer friends. As much as everyone thought you were so disturbing and hated you, you were a good kid.
Well, Lee... you had a pretty bad rep with a lot of people. But regardless you're still the kid that walked me to my house every day in grade 8 and 9, ate lunch with us, and hung out with us in the hall in the mornings. You were the butt of everyone's bad jokes, and they were stupidly hilarious in that horribly distasteful way, and no matter how pissed you got at all of us, you'd still hang around and help us out. You were there during my boyfriend problems, and you were there to make me upset in the gamestore just last month via playing "keep away" with the pokemon card that you bought me. It's awkward that people couldn't appreciate you more, but maybe things here just weren't for you, and that's why this happened. Regardless, I never stopped to think that last week when I saw you and said "Hey, Lee" after you waved and I continued talking to my other friends, that that would be the last thing I ever said to you, and the last time I saw you.
I can still barely believe that this happened, hasn't really sunk in that someone that young and that close in my peer group could have just died, and I wish you had a better shot a life.
But here's to you, Lee. I think those times of you walking me back in the pissing rain are burned in my mind for quite some time now.
And I, for one, if you know somehow that I'm writting this..
I wasn't one of those kids who cheered when they heard about your seizure last night that happened to kill you, two weeks before your 19th birthday.
rip ♥
“Your highness, when I said that you are like a stream of bat's piss, I only mean that you shine out like a shaft of gold when all around it is dark”
You know, I really hope everyone goes and gives themselves the chance to get to KNOW "that kid", the one who gets "that look", the one who has "those problems".. Cause guess what? He wasn't really my FRIEND friend, but I got that chance, and he was just like any of the rest of us. He was a good kid.
“Your highness, when I said that you are like a stream of bat's piss, I only mean that you shine out like a shaft of gold when all around it is dark”
I'm sure he knew you cared.
Even if you weren't really good friends, he still knew you cared and you didn't just see him as somebody insignificant.
Keep strong x
