I just need..

[Stellata]

I just needed to reach and feel connected with people. With you people. :)

I know we've had some disagreements, but I don't hate you, any of you. I wanted to say that.

Am starting to become deeply aware of how much I have pushed, and still push, people away in an attempt at protection that is 'past it's sell by date'. Am taking slow, steady steps to overcome this, and let people in.

And also, it's flipping freezing cold here! We lucked out up here in Suburbia and have barely any snow, thankfully, but it's effing cold! So I would like a hug, too. Please. *offers hot fruit tea and hot chocolate - AND toasted fruit bread*

Also. Work is stressful right now.
This is really a short visit back to public RYL. I'm not staying, though I do lurk and read often.

[pea soup]

hi there Katie :)

have missed seeing you around.

*accepts cup of fruit tea* thanks :)

*gentle hugs*

i wish you the best of luck with your doc appt.
good to see you again.
much love.
Rachel
xxxxxx

[finding.my.wings]

Hey Katie,
ive missed seeing you around here.
You may not remember me but i remember you and your support so you can have as many hugs as you need from me.

[makedamnsure]

Hey Katie

I push people away a lot too.
For me its because I have to try and prove to myself that they really care. But it backfires often.

Good to hear from you.
Take care.
xx

[youngatheart]

hi Katie

Hope your appointment goes well. Lovely to see you

[Sigma]

Hi Katie - good to hear from you!

(and it's hot here, so I'll swap the hot choccy for triple choco ice cream...)

[Stellata]

Thanks peoples.

.
Also, with the stress I am dissociating more, getting more brief 'blanks' than usual, as well as sliding into past realities because of the fragile trauma/pain memory spots that are touched upon with the whole insecurity thing at work.

I'm working on it all. I'm working really hard.
If anyone else has any moral support to offer I would be most grateful. Please. Thanks. :)

[startingagain]

Personally I'd take a union rep to the OH meeting. They can offer support after if you need it.

[Stellata]

Thanks for the advice. :)

I'm not a union member, for various reasons. But I can make sure that I have some form of support afterwards. I will be going straight home after, as I'd already booked the afternoon off work.
It's basically to review and 'top up on' as it were, those particular reasonable adjustments that have been put in place over the years to minimise the stress on my vulnerable spots, as it were, as far as possible - in the context of the current situation.

[makedamnsure]

I hope it goes ok Katie.
Make sure you have everything written down beforehand that you want to mention/ask about so you don't forget. And don't worry about being firm in asking for the adjustments you need.

[startingagain]

If they are looking at redundancies you definitely need to join a union.

[risenfromperdition]

*wave* :) good luck with meeting and hope its not tooo cold. Good to see you :)